You’d better sit down. Take a deep breath. Clear your mind and still your heart. What is contained herein has the power to shake the earth, changing each and every life it touches. BUT. IT. IS. TIME.
People have always intrigued me, so I have always watched them… deeply. More importantly, I have watched myself. What I am feeling? Why? What trigged that feeling? How can I shift my thought and gaze to bring a warmer and lighter feeling?
Growing up with this sobriety and depth, I experienced seeing and feeling things that others didn’t talk about. As I matured, this intrigued me, too. Why was *I* having experiences that no one else was? Or, were they and they were just too precious to share? Coming from deep LDS roots, I attributed my experiences (that I was taught to label “of the spirit”) to being a member of “The Church.” Yet, I had an insatiable thirst for more of these soul-stirring experiences and they were rarely included in the established lesson manuals. Although I did not understand until a few years ago what I was doing, I have lived my life by the Sermon on the Mount. (see the link to Matthew 5-7 on the right) Within the first twelve verses, of this profoundly magnificent document, are nine steps which, when applied can take one from the depths of misery (being POOR in spirit) into the indescribable delights awaiting each of us… beyond. I call these nine steps, the Stairway to Heaven.
The following link might be of interest to you if you, also, would like more background than is currently available regarding another, Joseph Smith Jr., who had a similar intense desire for more, finding… and climbing… this same stairway. https://www.quora.com/Joseph-Smith-in-his-first-vision-states-he-saw-an-angel-many-angels-the-lord-a-personage-etc-which-one-is-the-official-version-and-why-so-many-different-first-visions/answer/Kimberly-Davis-Wallis
Because the people of Joseph’s day (early 1800’s) were largely unprepared to receive the fullness of Joseph’s hope-filled message, Joseph was compelled to offer them the “crumbs” versions. Oh, how he longed to give them ALL. But they would not accept.
Through the ensuing years, though I have read deeply, I have yet to uncover more than just a handful of others who have had the same yearning to *KNOW* that Joseph had. I never did meet another member of the church that set itself up in his name, purportedly based upon that “First Vision,” who had their own “First Vision”… except me.
Like Joseph, and following Jesus’ counsel (Matthew 7), I did “Ask, Seek, and Knock”… with all my heart. I did not allow the incomplete understandings of any “leader” “dam” my progress. I did not allow unbelief to stop my fervent seeking. And my search has not been in vain. I have now been commanded to publicly reveal my experience in a sincere attempt to create a vision for YOU and to whet YOUR appetite to “go and do thou likewise.” No matter what your history, no matter your current religion or lack of, the message of Joseph’s “First Vision” is for each one of us!
Yet, nothing conveyed about Joseph and his “First Vision” was what actually happened. I know. I experienced it for my self.
What follows is *My* personal “First Vision”:
I grew up from strong LDS Mormon stock, giving all of my “time, talents, and energy,” every cell of my body, to the LDS Church in my attempt to live “joyfully” and find all the truth and meaning possible in life. Along the way, I was “tutored” by “Spirit,” often being mentored in many things that appeared to be out of the realm of interest of most other members around me. Yet, it was not enough for me to know all about God the Father and Jesus Christ. I wanted to KNOW THEM. I yearned to hear their voice with my own ears, to feel their arms around my mortal body, to see them with my own eyes, to be considered their friend.
I voraciously read The Book of Mormon, all the standard works of the church, the lives and writings of the prophets and apostles, gradually amassing quite an extensive library along the way. And yet, I wondered often why there was no one else that seemed to be having the experiences, receiving the directions, learning the things I was. Didn’t we all belong to the same church?
Whenever I would share my apparently “para-normal” experiences in an effort to help and buoy up others, I would often receive blank stares or looks of disbelief. At other times, people would confide how their lives had been positively changed because of our interactions. However, through my insatiable searching, I occasionally would stumble on deeply personal, spiritual accounts written by others.
It was, thus, on the evening of Monday, April 26, 1993, at thirty years of age, that I was given an unprecedented and singular experience. My husband at that time was out of town and I had all the children in bed for the night. Stretched across the bed, I was reading from a book compiled by one of my former BYU religion professors concerning “personal revelation.” As I read, I resonated so deeply with the experiences shared. These were individual accounts of a very personal and spiritual nature. Oh, how I resonated with these stories and with the desires of the pure-in-heart to rend the veil. As I read, I seemed to be a part of each scenario, living their precious experiences with them.
While deeply pondering and resonating with these stories of others, life in my 3-D world seemed to withdraw. Without warning or precedent, I was filled, completely, with the most brilliant, warm, pure light; every atom cohesively became bound and pulsated in a symphony of fire. It is impossible to verbalize the amazing JOY I felt, joy that seemed to nearly consume me. It seemed I was literally wrapped up in the presence of the divine, basking in a glorious sea of tranquil bliss. I put the book down and reveled in this overwhelming feeling for quite some time.
Words are not able to express what I then experienced. It was so beyond beautiful. Warm flames of light and love seemed to both fill and shower forth from not only my heart, but from each atom of my body, descending from the crown of my head to my feet.
I marveled at what I was experiencing and felt that I could no longer exist in my physical form without being taken from off the earth. My desire burned so deeply within me that I might see and hold the Savior… personally, in the flesh. I wanted to not only know of him, but I wanted to truly know him; to be his dear friend. I realized that this was my deepest desire. *He* was my true “soul mate” and the great yearning of my heart.
As I pondered on the feelings burning within me, I had many thoughts arise into my awareness. I had understanding wash over me that every righteous desire of my heart would be fulfilled. The words: “Everything I have ever given to any of my children is held in reserve for you… as soon as you truly desire it,” echoed and reverberated within my cells, never, ever, ever to be extinguished!. I was being promised and instructed that every gift ever given to any of God’s children were available to all—me included, as God was no respecter of persons.
I pondered on the experiences, as I understood them then, of Mahonri Moriancumr, those of Joseph Smith, Jr., even those of Jesus the Christ. I was given to understand that I had been given every gift and power ever given before to anyone… and would receive them as soon as I truly and completely and purely desired them. I claimed at that moment that I would, too, live in such a way as to bring forth the very same gifts and experiences that they had.
This incredible feeling… of being filled with light and fire and that I would soon start “ascending” right off the earth… stayed with me for quite a while afterwards and I basked in this bliss at least an hour, I’d guess, although *time* did not mean anything. After the feeling seemed to dissipate somewhat, I decided to get up and prepare myself for bed. As I was passing through my bathroom, my peripheral vision caught sight of a brilliant light coming from my left side. Stunned, I turned my head. From out of the bathroom mirror, was the reflection of *my face,* aglow with an ethereal light. I saw, instead of my physical body, a brilliant being of radiant light. Through the intense flames that were my face, I could see my facial features, but I couldn’t even look at myself directly in the mirror, it was so bright.
Through the coming months, I often pondered this experience. What was I to understand about myself from this? What did it mean? This desire of my heart, to KNOW Christ and to be “one” with him, continued to burn within me, making this point of reckoning in my life like a “new birth.” Yet, this personal “First Vision” experience intensified my efforts to realize all that the Father hath in store for any of his children. I resolved that, with every fiber of my being, everything that I am and everything that I have or ever hoped to be or have, I dedicate to consistently and correctly serve God and my fellow man.
As precious as the experience I just relayed, it was only my “first.” I have since gone beyond. Indeed, there is such profound potential awaiting for each one of us. So much lies in wait for the pure in heart who have real and sincere intent on receiving and experiencing for them self, not being content for the “trickle-down” versions.
I have pledged to be Christ’s voice to this generation; to bring the hope and joy to others that I feel; to help rid the world of fear and unhappiness. I want each to know “pure light and truth,” to have “intelligence” distill itself upon each one, within each one, until there is no “one” left. I endeavor to assist each to purify their love and learn how to appropriately apply it to benefit each one in our global family of mutual “brothers and sisters.” I have felt the divine and glorious love for myself, and Oh, how I want all my “brothers and sisters” to experience what I have. Some day, each WILL!
What Joseph and I both experienced, EACH ONE OF YOU must experience in order to “fulfill the measure of YOUR creation” and overcome death… the final test.
The sixteen men of the LDS Church who believe they follow Joseph, holding the same keys and authority he did, hold no more keys or authority than you do. Joseph’s message was that YOU and each of you must claim the same gift! AGE is not a factor. GENDER is not a factor. RACE is not a factor. God is NOT a respecter of persons! YOU must rend your own personal veil of unbelief, now and in this life, opening up in sincere humility and pure desire to know the mysteries of godliness in full… for your self… or suffer the consequences!
Alma 9: 9 “And now Alma began to expound these things unto him, saying: It is given unto many to know the mysteries of God; nevertheless they are laid under a strict command that they shall not impart only according to the portion of his word which he doth grant unto the children of men, according to the heed and diligence which they give unto him.
10 And therefore, he that will harden his heart, the same receiveth the lesser portion of the word; and he that will not harden his heart, to him is given the greater portion of the word, until it is given unto him to know the mysteries of God until he know them in full.
11 And they that will harden their hearts, to them is given the lesser portion of the word until they know nothing concerning his mysteries; and then they are taken captive by the devil, and led by his will down to destruction. Now this is what is meant by the chains of hell.”
Now can you see why Joseph could not begin to fully disclose his experiences to the early members?
Because there ARE some at this time who have “exercised their faith” and know not where to look for their answers to their pure desires, I have been authorized to share both Joseph’s complete experience (again, read my Quora post titled “Joseph Smith, Jr.’s First Vision), as well as my own.
Only as you have your own, literal, “First Vision” can you truly know and understand Christ and his intended message. Only then can you truly know and understand Joseph and his. Only then can you continue into your second, third, fourth, until you become fully immersed within “the other world,” an “alien” of sorts to this one. Only then can you truly assist to bring forth “heaven on earth.” Only then can “you” come to KNOW *YOU.*
May you each… “Go and do thou likewise.”
In my pursuit of Real Truth, I have given up everything. Crawling through the “eye of the needle,” I have learned the *mysteries* and am now giving my life to assist YOU to dis-cover Who *YOU* really are, along with your unique gift to offer humanity. As you learn to seek (in the right place and with purified intent), you WILL find treasures of lasting value, along with every promised reward. Together, we will establish a society of humane beings and live life ALIVE, on PURPOSE, and with a sociality unequaled… because we will each BE and view each other as equally and profoundly DIVINE! Please… catch this Hope and Vision and join with me.