I promised this post… yesterday. I did not write this yesterday, however. I take seriously my commitments and apologize if I let anyone down. But… love got in the way. Thus, with a full heart, I make good on my intentions and allow the words to tumble out in my attempt to convey that which, it is my deepest hope, will uplift a world starving (knowingly or not) for this manna.
Wanting to find and be able to refer to some of my personal journal accounts in order to do this, I had to first organize my journals. Yes, I have far more than just a few. Especially over the last ten years I have kept a notebook and pen with me at nearly all times, recording “revelations,” experiences, feelings, any thought or idea that could assist me to figure life… and thus, love, out. You see, around midnight of June 3rd, my young daughter and I moved out silently, secretly, spontaneously, from the house we shared with my “Beloved,” a house he built (he said) for me. “Harmony House.” A home conceived, constructed, 2X4’s inscribed with black-markered-labels, of my vision for it: “healing,” “charity,” “intelligence,” “fun,”… and many more.
Not yet placed in any organized fashion in the cupboard where I had stowed them a month ago, yesterday I set out, one-by-one-by-one, my written records and… perused… and remembered… and felt. Taking a break from my recollecting, I measured my vibratory level. Instead of being at the summit where I typically reside, I was down near the bottom. 75. “Grief.” Yes, Love Hurts.
Reviewing several of my journal entries, I was struck with how I have gone through soul-ripping experiences… over and over and over… and over again. Yet, like a series of hard “workouts” in a physical gym… done with (mostly) focus and tenacity, and while steadfastly applying the formula for “mastery”… I have completed each set. Allowing myself to feel and heal and head right back (usually) for the next sequence, I have also attempted to assist others to feel and heal… and learn. Through it all, I have gained much insight into the mortal curriculum of “love.” Although these last four years have been the most grueling and trying of my entire 56 years of learning through the trials of love, they have also honed me, completed me, moved me into and beyond the greatest experiences in which a mortal can directly participate. I bow in gratitude for the opportunity to have learned about love through my own experience of it.
Yes, some say love is this, some say love is that, some search widely and never find it. Yet, love is never lost. And, although hiding in plain sight, love has been rarely recognized for what it truly is.
No matter Who you are, What your current experience, How difficult your situation… “L.O.V.E.” IS The Answer… YOUR Answer!
But, who, truly, understands what love IS? Few. In fact, it could be said that this mortal experiment is an attempt to understand just What Love Is.
So, let’s properly define love:
LOVE is the “level of vibratory excellence.”
IF you wish a concise summation of L.O.V.E., then I will cut to the chase and you may choose to end your reading after this next sentence.
Love is one’s ability to act, interact, and re-act properly and for the long-term good of all in each and every situation one engages while maintaining peace of mind and rejoicing gratitude of heart.
If the above is sufficient for you, then I wish you adieu. If, however, you want more clarification, then I invite you to continue reading.
One has recently declared an (apparent) attack upon my premise that, yes, “LOVE IS The Answer.” IF one interprets love as is commonly defined today*, then I would agree.
*(love: “an intense feeling of deep affection; a great interest and pleasure in something; a person or thing that one loves; the feeling of deep romantic or sexual attachment to someone.”)
Indeed, This *love is NOT “the answer”!
But, allow me to provide the Truth about love and why, yes, LOVE IS The Answer. 🙂
Again: Love (L.O.V.E.) is the: “Level. Of. Vibratory. Excellence.”
Level is the “amount, quantity or quality of some measured thing or idea.”
Vibration is the “periodic back-and-forth motion of the particles of a fluid or medium whose equilibrium has been disturbed, in an attempt to restore equilibrium; a person’s emotional state; the atmosphere of an environment.”
Excellence is “Purity of heart, uprightness of mind, sincerity, virtue. In short, whatever contributes to exalt man, or to bless society, is in him an excellence.”
When a person or thing is at rest, we would call that state balance or peace. Although everything is energy and, thus, all is in continual flux or movement, when one is feeling peace or seeing tangible objects that appear to be stable and non-moving, it is because the vibrations are slower than the human eye can perceive. One’s environment and the objects within it are, thus, said to be still.
All is energy, movement, aware and conscious light. As such, nothing in this world is ever in perfect stillness.
Love, is a measure of vibration, and thus, implies movement. Love is a state of being moved to act upon a situation in order to bring it back into greater harmony or equilibrium. One is MOVED… by love… to assist another. And it is a call for love that is responded to by love.
(Although what follows would largely be judged as “religious,” I encourage you to read through the jargon to glean the jewels within. It is those precious insights which I will be polishing and shining light upon.)
John (13:34-35) “A new commandment I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so also you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are My disciples, if you love one another.”
In the Biblical book of Matthew (26:30), it is recorded: “When they had sung a hymn, they went out to the Mount of Olives.” John, “the Beloved Disciple,” records for us in the apocryphal book, “The Acts of John” (94-97) what has been entitled the “Round Dance of the Cross.” This round dance is the hymn spoken of that was sung before the crucifixion. This interactive experience was Jesus’ very last attempt to teach through shared experience what love actually is to those who, up to that ultimate moment, were still confused.
94 “Now, before he was arrested by the lawless Jews, who received their law from a lawless serpent, he gathered us all together and said, ‘Before I am delivered up to them, let us sing a hymn to the Father, and go forth to what lies before us.’ So he commanded us to make a circle, holding one another’s hands, and he himself stood in the middle. He said, ‘Respond Amen to me.’ He then began to sing a hymn, and to say:
‘Glory be to you, Father!’
And we circling him said, ‘Amen.’
‘Glory be to you, Word! Glory be to you, Grace!’ ‘Amen.’
‘Glory be to you, Spirit! Glory be to you, Holy One! Glory be to the glory!’ ‘Amen’
‘We praise you, O Father. We give thanks to you, light, in whom darkness does not abide.’ ‘Amen.’
95 ‘Now we give thanks, I say:
I will be saved, and I will save.’ ‘Amen.’
‘I will be loosed, and I will loose.’ ‘Amen.’
‘I will be pierced, and I will pierce.’ ‘Amen.’
‘I will be born, and I will bear.’ ‘Amen.’
‘I will eat, and I will be eaten.’ ‘Amen.’
‘I will hear, and I will be heard.’ ‘Amen.’
‘I will be understood, being wholly understanding.’ ‘Amen.’
‘I will be washed, and I will wash.’ ‘Amen.’
Grace is dancing.
‘I will pipe, dance all of you!’ ‘Amen.’
‘I will mourn, lament all of you!’ ‘Amen.’
‘An Ogdoad is singing with us.’ ‘Amen.’
‘The Twelfth number is dancing above.’ ‘Amen.’
‘The whole universe takes part in the dancing.’ ‘Amen.’
‘He who does not dance, does not know what is being done.’ ‘Amen.’
‘I will flee and I will stay.’ ‘Amen.’
‘I will adorn, and I will be adorned.’ ‘Amen.’
‘I will be united, and I will unite.’ ‘Amen.’
‘I have no house, and I have houses.’ ‘Amen.’
‘I have no place, and I have places.’ ‘Amen.’
‘I have no temple, and I have temples.’ ‘Amen.’
‘I am a lamp to you who see me.’ ‘Amen.’
‘I am a mirror to you who perceive.’ ‘Amen.’
‘I am a door to you who knock on me.’ ‘Amen.’
‘I am a way to you, wayfarer.’ ‘Amen.’
96 “‘Now if you respond to my dancing, see yourself in me who speak; and when you have seen what I do, keep silence about my mysteries! You who dance, perceive what I do; for yours is this passion of mankind which I am to suffer! For you could not at all have comprehended what you suffer if I had not been sent to you as the Word by the Father. When you saw what I suffer, you have seen me as one suffering; and seeing that, you have not stood firm but were wholly moved. Moved to become wise, you have me for a support. Rest upon me! Who am I? You shall know when I go away. What I am now seen to be, that I am not. You shall see when you come. If you knew how to suffer, you would have had the power not to suffer. Learn suffering, and you shall have the power not to suffer. That which you do not know, I will teach you. I am your Elohim, not that of the betrayer. I will that there be prepared holy souls for me. Know the word of wisdom! Say again with me:
Glory be to you, Father; glory be to you, Word; Glory be to you, Holy Spirit!
Now concerning me, if you would know what I was: with a word I once deceived all things, and was not put to shame at all. I have leaped; but understand the whole, and having understood it say, ‘Glory be to you, Father!’ ‘Amen.’
97 “After this dance, my beloved the Master went out; and we were as men gone astray or dazed with sleep, and we fled all ways. Even I, when I saw him suffer, did not abide at his passion but fled to the Mount of Olives, weeping over what had taken place. And when he was hung upon the cross …, at the sixth hour of the day, there came darkness over all the earth. And my Master stood in the middle of the cave and lit it up, and said, ‘John, to the multitude down below in Jerusalem I am being crucified and pierced with lances and reeds, and gall and vinegar is given me to drink. But to you I am speaking and pay attention to what I say. I put it into your mind to come up to this mountain, so that you might hear matters needful for a disciple to learn from his teacher, and for a man to learn from his Elohim.’
For I am the first and the last
I am the honored one and the scorned one.
I am the whore and the holy one.
I am the wife and the virgin…
I am the barren one
And many are her sons…
For I am knowledge and ignorance.
I am shame and boldness.
I am shameless; I am ashamed.
I am strength and I am fear.
I am war and I am peace.
I am the one who is disgraced and the great one…
I am godless,
And I am the one whose God is great.
The above, which resembles closely the “Round Dance of the Cross” comes from “The Thunder, Perfect Mind,” in the Nag Hammadi Library, James M. Robinson, Editor.
In poetic prose, both portray life’s curriculum of L.O.V.E. Yet, both have been forgotten, hidden, and misunderstood for millennia. The time for the full disclosure of love… is now.
Although “love hurts”… and yet is the propelling, compelling mover in the universe, as promised above: “If you knew how to suffer, you would have had the power not to suffer. Learn suffering, and you shall have the power not to suffer.”
Stay tuned for Part 2 of L.O.V.E. (Level. Of. Vibratory. Excellence.)
In my pursuit of Real Truth, I have given up everything. Crawling through the “eye of the needle,” I have learned the *mysteries* and am now giving my life to assist YOU to dis-cover Who *YOU* really are, along with your unique gift to offer humanity. As you learn to seek (in the right place and with purified intent), you WILL find treasures of lasting value, along with every promised reward. Together, we will establish a society of humane beings and live life ALIVE, on PURPOSE, and with a sociality unequaled… because we will each BE and view each other as equally and profoundly DIVINE! Please… catch this Hope and Vision and join with me.