As I have repeatedly declared: “LOVE IS the Answer!” However, as I clarified in Part 1: IF one interprets love as is commonly defined today: “an intense feeling of deep affection; a great interest and pleasure in something; a person or thing that one loves; the feeling of deep romantic or sexual attachment to someone,” then I would agree, THAT love is NOT the answer!
I have countered the previous definition of “love” with:
Love is one’s ability to act, interact, and re-act properly and for the long-term good of all in each and every situation one engages while maintaining peace of mind and rejoicing gratitude of heart.
Please read and re-read and study the just given definition. THAT “Love IS the answer!”
I have shared that:
LOVE is the “level of vibratory EXCELLENCE.” (L.O.V.E.) As such, Love is an acronym encompassing all that is holy, pure, and… empowered.
L.O.V.E. is who we ARE. L.O.V.E. is who *YOU* Are!
Love, as such, is an Action; a VERB. It is a movement TOWARDS greater peace. Yet, love is NOT “peace.”
As Paul attempted to explain (in my own words): there is the mental idea, the vision of what you would like to see (“Faith”), and there is the emotional desire for the realization of that vision no matter how Impossible it seems (“Hope”), but without wisely and intelligently ACTING Upon that idea through (“Charity”), L.O.V.E. is NOTHING.
The idea known as “Jesus” describes it as thus: (Matthew 10:34-36) “Do not think that I came to bring peace on the earth; I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I came to set a man against his father, and a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law; and a man’s enemies will be the members of his household.”
Again, L.O.V.E. is NOT “peace!”
L.O.V.E. is NOT EVEN “compassion” as it is often understood!
Love IS moving With Passion (intense, focused feeling from deep within one’s being) TOWARD Peace.
Love is the Level of Vibrational EXCELLENCE! Love is the ultimate power unleashed and focused!
Love’s focus is ALWAYS: “What is the Good of All?” “How can I benefit the movement towards greater alignment for Everyone?”
THIS “Love” is what “Jesus” promised his disciples when he was preparing to leave them. John 14: “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going.”
Thomas said to him, “Lord, we don’t know where you are going, so how can we know the way?”
Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. If you really know me, you will know my Father as well. From now on, you do know him and have seen him.”
Philip said, “Lord, show us the Father and that will be enough for us.”
Jesus answered: “Don’t you know me, Philip, even after I have been among you such a long time? Anyone who has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, ‘Show us the Father’? Don’t you believe that I am in the Father, and that the Father is in me? The words I say to you I do not speak on my own authority. Rather, it is the Father, living in me, who is doing his work. Believe me when I say that I am in the Father and the Father is in me; or at least believe on the evidence of the works themselves. Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.
“If you love me, keep my commands. And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever— the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. Whoever has my commands and keeps them is the one who loves me. The one who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love them and show myself to them.”
Then Judas (not Judas Iscariot) said, “But, Lord, why do you intend to show yourself to us and not to the world?”
Jesus replied, “Anyone who loves me will obey my teaching. My Father will love them, and we will come to them and make our home with them. Anyone who does not love me will not obey my teaching. These words you hear are not my own; they belong to the Father who sent me.
“All this I have spoken while still with you. But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
“You heard me say, ‘I am going away and I am coming back to you.’ If you loved me, you would be glad that I am going to the Father, for the Father is greater than I. I have told you now before it happens, so that when it does happen you will believe. I will not say much more to you, for the prince of this world is coming. He has no hold over me, but he comes so that the world may learn that I love the Father and do exactly what my Father has commanded me.
“Come now; let us leave.”
The foundational characteristics of this universe… of YOU… are NOT love and mercy, but rather JUSTICE! (Fairness, equality, “karma,” “cast your bread upon the waters it comes back to you,” “you reap what you sow,” “the law of the harvest,” “the law of attraction,” “the secret.”) All that exists does so by its inherent nature of JUSTICE.
The “fall of man” was a decent Below JUSTICE into IN-equality and UN-fairness. Thus, “Moses” represents mankind’s call to come back into balance.
“Jesus'” role was to take mankind further and he, thus, emphasized MERCY. Mercy is released from a just sentence. A “just sentence” stipulates: “She stole one of your healthy cows. You have rights upon one of hers.” MERCY acknowledges, “She might have greater need for the cow she took than I do. I forgive her her action and release her from her debt.” OR, “I agree to the exchange and willingly let go of the judgment I had in my heart.” Again, “Mercy is released from a just sentence.”
Mercy is the L.O.V.E. that one has for another IN BALANCE WITH the L.O.V.E. that one has for one’s self. In other words, the horizontal beam that balances upon the central pivot point has at both ends LOVE (for Self and for Others). To be in balance, they must be equal and rest upon Justice. This is the great principle that Jesus personified by taking those who were ready BEYOND the “Mosaic Law,”… “The Golden Rule.” The two sides of the scale: Love for Self and Love for All Others must balance upon the fulcrum of JUSTICE to be Really True… for All.
To re-establish Justice within one’s world, one must first identify the IN-justice and deal with it honestly. When one senses unfairness, often anger arises. It was “Jesus'” role to show HOW to appropriately deal with the sense of being UN-justly dealt with. (AGAIN, and again, and again… read and ponder upon Matthew 5: 3-12 which I include on my site as a link.) Though one might feel wronged and feel resultant anger, Jesus taught HOW to utilize that anger. Through forgiveness and mercy and right action (charity/ L.O.V.E.).
Though one might feel fear, Jesus taught HOW to utilize that fear. Correctly! Through Courage. Courage DEPENDS upon fear. Indeed, courage is a mute point without fear. Courage admits uncertainty and possible failure… but ACTS appropriately ANYWAYS.
It is this equalizing of love, love for Self AND equal love for Each “Other” that allows for the balance to rest upon Justice. This state or degree of harmony has yet to be experienced on a large scale (pun not intended) upon this earth. Yet, my life (and yours?) is focused upon and moving towards this state of JOY available only through HARMONY. As one’s self-centered (egoic) “MY Will” is swallowed up into “THY Will” be done… each need is taken care of and balance ensues. In peace. Because of L.O.V.E.
As one of emotional maturity (L.O.V.E.) observes the goings-on of the world, he is able to acknowledge that another is acting in his or her OWN self(ish) interest and has just made a counter-move on the cosmic chess board. L.O.V.E. challenges “Satan’s” advances! In this way, one acting in behalf of the *Good Of All* ADVANCES humanity while also gaining individual power. THIS is courage in action. This is charity, the True Love of Christ. THIS action in service to the betterment of humanity ultimately warrants the Peace Sign:
L.O.V.E. is an act of courage when moving beyond one’s personal “comfort zone” in an attempt to advance the good of all.
“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength.
Loving someone deeply gives you courage.” Lao Tsu (See this quote on the right side of my home page.)
Lao Tsu knew that True L.O.V.E. pushes a person into action that they would rather not take. But, thinking of the eternal welfare of ALL equally and realizing that “ALL” includes one’s individual self as well, loving others deeply enough gives one courage to act beyond one’s comfort zone.
Gandhi used these words to illuminate the concept: “Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will.”
Indeed, when one’s WILL is “THY will be done,” then one’s actions will be made from a place of focused power: L.O.V.E. … that benefits the *Good of All.*
As “form follows function” is an eternal principle and a common cliché embodying that principle is: “You use it or you lose it,” it makes total sense to me now the reason why I lost my beautiful speaking and singing voice. I was sucked into defining love as society implanted. I spent most of my life being submissive and making no waves. Until recently I was blind to my own “passive aggressiveness.” I did not use my voice for the purpose for which it had been given me! Although sweet and always trying to serve, I did not allow myself to ROAR. Thus, I had no eternal need for a loud voice. Also my teeth. Because I chose to always be gentle and mild, I had no use to “bite into anything” and “chew it to pieces.”
But… having ascended to the top of my mountain and re-membered what LOVE actually is, I am re-gaining my voice and re-growing my teeth. I have learned to use them with courage and actually am not afraid to roar now!
I have spent my life covering for others, choosing to be the “scapegoat” and look bad so that those who were twisting the truth regarding ME would not look bad. NO MORE! Now, I Roar! With L.O.V.E. 🙂
Please read what I wrote this past January as an answer on Quora: https://www.quora.com/How-do-you-know-if-you-are-ready-for-a-relationship-or-not/answer/Kimberly-Davis-Wallis (I encourage you to read my answer before continuing on this post. It will make what follows understandable and as an addendum.)
However… My deeply longed for and hoped for and worked-with-intense-and-passionate-focus-for-disclosure… was premature. As I wrote in my post “L.O.V.E. Part 1,” Krystal and I left David on June 3rd… and have not returned. Again, I will soon publish the entire story, but what follows leads the dedicated reader to view what has been taking place, again as my attempt to teach L.O.V.E.
June 1, 2018: In addition to my other tasks and responsibilities, David and I jumped on the tramp together, laid out in the sun for an hour, played pickle-ball together, went out on errands and for coffee and conversation while Krystal attended her last (4th) day of basketball camp and then played and swam with a new friend. Later that night, David and I were intimate. While embracing him, I felt impressed to ask him a question. Because of his continued lack of full-disclosure and his mental filters that had not yet been totally dismantled, he went into fear and judgment. David hedged and hawed, side-stepping my questions with further questions, going into an attempt to project guilt and leaving the room. (Again, I will publish the full account soon.) For two days, then, David went from evasiveness to victimhood to anger, to projecting guilt, responding with smugness or impassioned anger and meanness to “I’m so f**kin tired of this sh*t” (repeated 15 times). Then, looking upward: “Please end it, one way or the other. Please end it!!!”
Because I would not verbally participate in his out-of-control rantings, but would just look at him with gentle eyes, silently imploring him to remember my love and find his peace, David wasn’t receiving any feedback to twist even further. At times he would almost simmer down for a few minutes before his brain would spot another detail to blow up and twist. I refused to enter into his emotional arena.
Then… he began “kicking the dog.” Exploding into Krystal’s room, he began attacking Her verbally and impugning imagined guilt and motives upon Her in attempts to make himself feel better, repeatedly calling her a “liar.” When I stepped in and supported Krystal, allowing her the opportunity to respond, it was obvious even to him that he was in grave error. Merely turning his head to the side and emotionally settling down some, I asked him if he was able to apologize to her. He quietly and smugly snarled: “sorry!” The rest of the day David continued to quietly smolder and keep his distance.
Reader, please remember that this is a man that I deeply L.O.V.E. Both Krystal and I had repeatedly side-stepped his emotional storms and volatile eruptions. She had kept a back-pack ready for the last two years for the many times we had been thrown out of “his house.” There were few, actually NONE, who knew what Krystal and I have lived through with that man. Yet, many had witnessed our tremendous bond and the deep connection we feel… WHEN HE WAS ABLE TO MAINTAIN HIS BALANCE OF POWER.
The paradox was almost comical. Yet, through my exposure to Quora, I have read dozens if not hundreds of others’ experiences in similar situations. As I read their plight, I TRULY believed… and wrote… that I would be able to help others heal from emotional immaturity and their deep childhood wounds, thus allowing for healed relationships. I felt this… and wrote this… because I had applied the “commands” I had been guided to from my own counselor deep within. David had gradually learned to trust someone… ME… and had become more and more whole and honest and willing to respect me and our union as he learned how to feel his own feelings and utilize them properly. But, alas, he had not clung to this level… as indicated by our last experience that final day together.
The following day, after David had stormed out “I’m going on a bike ride; don’t know where or for how long…” I called a friend and said that the time had come. David had made it loud and clear. Krystal and I must leave. My friend (name withheld) volunteered to come get us and bring us to live in his house. I thanked him and said I would ponder his offer and get back with him. I called him a while later and it was decided. He arrived about 11:30 pm. As we were able, Krystal and I had begun organizing a few of our belongings throughout the afternoon. This friend had brought with him boxes and we quietly loaded them with pertinent personal items and a few articles of clothes, my journals and some books, and headed out about 1:00 am June 4th. While we made trips back and forth through the house, David, always an ultra-light sleeper, slept; unaware. This was, truly, a precious “miracle.” 🙂
Though my mission, my mandate, is “Harmony House,” and that state of “Zion” where the “pure in heart dwell” is only accessed through Actual L.O.V.E., please internalize: LOVE does NOT mean “peace.” Love leads us to peace, but often through very rocky terrain as we pursue our journey always with “THY Will be done.”
I will now include David’s and my text messages since we have been separated:
June 4th: K: “I received your message. Krystal and I are in safe, temporary shelter. I have cancelled piano lessons until I am able to resume them. I will contact you when I am more settled regarding moving forward with the home. Please take care of it and the cats. I choose, again, not to speak with you until I can be assured that your anger will not be an issue. I wish you well.”
D: “My anger is not an issue when you are open to conversation. When you close that door, I do have a weakness of knocking hard sometimes. You KNOW you are safe here, why do you attempt to blow this out of proportion and play the victim like you always do? I will move on with my life if that’s what you wish…
June 14th: D: “Pearl is getting pretty fat.”
K: ” :-)”
We had wondered the second week of May from how Krystal’s female cat was acting if she would indeed be getting pregnant. This seemed to answer our question. Oh, how Krystal was missing her three cats. Now, to know that her precious “Pearl” was pregnant and would be having babies was bitter-sweet. Krystal really wanted to be there before, during, and after the delivery to raise and socialize the kittens.
David called at 12:20. We talk for several minutes. David said that he had been telling people that I had moved out to give him space to adjust to all the healing that I had taken him through. He wanted me to say that I was coming back but would allow him to go back to his former ways. I emphasized that though I loved him dearly, I would not live with him, but that if he TRULY decided to take responsibility, that he could implement all that I had helped him process and finalize his emotional maturity and, thus, become a positive force for good in the world. He reiterated what he had stipulated for the past several months should we separate. “We talked before about you getting $50K from the sell of the house. I think you are entitled to it and I think that’s fair.” He agreed to put the house “immediately on the market,” and then became very emotional.
Fifteen minutes later he called back. “I thought YOU were supposed to be here? This is ‘HARMONY HOUSE’! I can build another house. I’m willing to do whatever it takes to get you here.” He then proposed Krystal and I move back in and share the house… as friends and without the parameters I had established to be treated by him as a respected wife. I declined, drawing his attention to the fact that I can only… I will only… be in a place of respect. If he couldn’t do that when we were working towards trust and honest union, then he couldn’t do that now. That acknowledgement triggered his defensive victimhood again. “I’ve never fought! It was you provoking me by bringing up issues.” I responded: “Please. Unless and until you can take responsibility without projecting guilt or becoming defensive, just flowing as water in union and meekness always… you cannot assist us. You will be of no use to me and the work I am doing until you see, with gratitude, my service poured out in your benefit.”
June 15th: D: (4:54 am) “Thinking of you.”
He then called and left a voice message, asking how he could get some of the squash and tomatoes from our garden to me. He wasn’t sure what to do with the large crop.
K: “:-) I received your voice message. Thank you. I’m not sure how or when I could get some of the veggies… though I would like to. Maybe after this weekend sometime… Have a great one!”
June 17th: He again called and we talked, agreeing to meet halfway. With Krystal in tow, we decided to order lunch and eat it at a nearby park. He commented that he does not have much money so, without further comment, I paid.
June 19th: K: “Please know… you are being sent SHOWERS of empowering LIGHT. You Can hold on tight to Nathan!” (Nathan was the personal name for his “Holy Ghost.”)
D: “I’m very grateful.”
K: “!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂 !!! Gratitude means you’re receiving!!!”
June 20th: 7:03 am David sends two videos of his piano composition which was a Christmas present to me in 2017 entitled: “Kimberly’s Song.” I called him and thanked him. Later, I texted him: “I SO often have insight that I miss being able to share with you…”
June 21st: K: “Just want to pass on that I see and deeply respect the spark of light within you. The one tethered to Nathan. Oh, how I look forward to the day when you acknowledge truly, deeply consistently seeking for, finding, and CLINGING TO… HIM!!! 🙂 ”
D: “Me too, thanks for your confidence…”
K: “YESSS!!!” Smile…
D: “I love you.”
K: “I love ‘You’!”
Krystal began humming a song (that she later said she didn’t even know) that was one of David’s and my “songs.” Whenever he would play it on the piano I would come to him wherever I was in the house and give him a hug. We both felt a deep connection to it: “I Can’t Help Falling in Love with you.” I decided to text him.
K: “Wise men say”
D: “Only fools rush in”
K: “But I can’t help
D: “Falling for you…”
June 22nd: David called and left a message. I returned his call and we talked. He expressed great loneliness and wanting my suggestions as to how to move forward. He had never lived alone before and requires a steady supply of validation and interaction. As I had many times before, I encouraged him to seek “Nathan’s” assistance as he found ways to apply his unique talents in service to humanity… true service to others, not just his vanity in disguise. He specifically asked what I had done immediately following my divorce fifteen years ago. I responded that, initially, I focused specifically and intensively on raising my emotional vibration into a continual state of Rejoicing Gratitude. I reminded him that one can only do that by being brutally and completely honest with one’s self, which requires being *STILL* and *LISTENING DEEPLY*. He seemed gratified at what I shared and expressed that he did want to continue forward in his spiritual/ emotional development and was determined not to slip backward to relying upon the validation of mortal relationships.
D: It was good to talk to you. Have an awesome weekend.
K: “Thank you. Hold on TIGHT, to Nathan. Please…….”
June 27th: D: “FYI, pearl still hasn’t (sic) her babies yet… Should be soon”
June 28th: (This was David’s 63rd birthday.) K: “I hope you feel TRUE happiness today! 🙂 ”
D: I WILL do it, thank you. I hope you are doing well… 🙂
July 2nd: D: “Are you enjoying your summer?”
(With mental hurdles I was clearing that he had no idea of, yet, I responded.)
K: “Well… I make the most of each moment… 🙂 ”
D: “Good on you, keep it up!”
K: “How are You?”
D: “Lonely but doing ok I guess. The days seem so long…”
K: “Watch Benjamin James–Beggar on You Tube.”
D: “I’ll feed the beggar within!”
K: “Please… Let that be Nathan. … Please…”
D: “What does he like to eat?”
K: “Rejoicing, meek gratitude. And, he’s ravenous!!!”
D: “I’ve been feeding him that already. Why is he still so hungry?”
K: “Because you’ve also been making his predator stronger.”
D: “Ah ha!”
July 4th: After reading my website post: “What is Real?” David responded with: “Wow! Thank you! You are so beautiful.. I love you!!!!!”
I responded the following evening: “I love you, too. Always will.”
July 6th: D: “So do you have any desire to see me again?”
K: “If this is Nathan asking, then absolutely!”
D: “I’m David, that’s what you Named me a while back…”
D: “I don’t have multiple personalities, just ONE trying his hardest to do the right thing always. If this is who you want to be with then let me know…”
D: “I would love to see Kimberly the beautiful girl I fell in love with…”
K: “If ‘we’ didn’t work before, then ‘we’ wouldn’t work now or in the future. No. As much as I deeply, purely, unfalteringly LOVE the pure essence within you, as beautiful as many aspects of “you” are, until you take FULL Responsibility for your emotional immaturity and make it your dedicated and continual And Honest focus to gratefully apply the jewels that I offered you… No. No matter how much you’d like to believe that you ‘don’t have multiple personalities, just ONE trying his hardest to do the right thing always,” Then, no, “this is (not) who (I) want to be with.” This is NOT the daddy I want for Krystal… Or my other eventual 15 billion. But with hopes for you sometime… And eternal love…”
July 8th: K: “Please… Don’t let all the Love I poured into you… All that I taught and explained and mentored you… All the meek example of Krystal… Please don’t let it to have been in vain. Please… Go to Christ. Seek Him. Find Him. BE THE MAN YOU ARE DEEP WITHIN. Please…”
D: “Ok 🙂 ”
July 9th: After reading my posts on L.O.V.E. Parts 1 and 2, David wrote to me: “Good Grief!!! If only you would have learned how to communicate and not put yourself above another, me!!” (I did not allow this comment to become public.)
July 10th: D: “Pearl had 6 healthy babies early this morning.”
K: “Yayyy! If you feel to… we would really appreciate pictures.”
D: “Ok, they are all dark with some white except for one that is mostly white.”
Anyone who knows mamma cats can see the deep sadness in Pearl’s eyes. As much as Krystal and I were grateful that her delivery had gone well, we also felt deep sadness to not have been there with her and for her labor, or to be with them now. However, I did not then share our feelings with David.
K: “Wow! They’re Beautiful! And big! Thank you…”
D: “Your (sic) welcome, she got pretty big…”
July 12th: David called: “Is there anything you need? Anything I can do?”
(WOW!) I sincerely thanked him and told him I was gratified he was thinking outside his self. He reluctantly divulged some details: He had put the house title back in his name but doesn’t want to sell it. He’s checked into a home equity line of credit and even though he was told he could get it, he doesn’t want to have to pay the points. He said he’s not doing anything for now, just “taking it a day at a time.”
Although I did not say this, I was stunned that he was continuing to drag his feet. He was not truly, after all, concerned about our wellbeing, only his. He was floundering without the deep love that I had poured upon him for four years, yet had not even offered me a penny of the $50,000. we had agreed upon to assist in Krystal’s and my transition. Her school begins shortly… wherever that might be. Although she has learned tremendous patience and resilience in her life, although she has worked through hundreds of opportunities to forgive him, she has a right to feel settled somewhere. Krystal and I have now been in limbo for six weeks, because he “doesn’t want to sell” our house in order to have the funds to give me our agreed upon settlement.
July 16th: D: “Do you want to come down and see the kittens?”
K: “Of course, we would dearly Love to “see” and play with and raise the kitties. It has been very painful for Krystal to be denied her “babies.” But until she and I have a home and secure lodging and life, that trip would be superfluous and unwise…”
(After sending it, I wished I had used the word “inappropriate” instead of “superfluous,” as it was more my intent.)
D: “I am not the one who has denied Krystal of anything. Your security has been compromised by YOU! Don’t blame anyone else please. I’m ALWAYS open to communication but you are the one who is blocking that pathway… In peace and wishing you well, truly…”
K: “Ok. Keep that perspective if it really works for you…”
K: “We had a home… simple, but ours… before selling that to be with you. Now, you are not even doing a minimally responsible part of assisting us to get stability and our physical needs taken care of. SIX WEEKS!!! SIX WEEKS and you have YET to move into humility and responsibility and compassion! Returning “as a dog to his vomit” … after ALL I had poured into and mentored you into a higher perspective which offered you SOOO much more of an eternal, REAL, nature. But, again, if your focus on “you” works for you… Keep it.”
D: “You took all of my money from me, and still have it. How am I suppose to help you out. Your mind is so warped it’s impossible to reason with you. You won’t even talk to me so how could any of what you accuse me of occur??”
K: “I took nothing from you and yet offered to take you through the veil and into “heaven” with me. If that is truly the view you are choosing, then I feel even more disappointment for you. Amen.”
D: “Please seek mental help, Amen.”
D: “All it seems you have to offer is the ‘Kingdom of heaven.” I suggest in your future you offer kindness and respect to others… It might make them more interested in the former.”
Reader, I took nothing of David’s. Although our car and home had been in my name, I left the car title with him (signed over to him) when I left the home June 4th. Upon our phone decision to sell the home, I promptly complied and filled out and had notarized a “Quit Claim” on the home, putting it solely into his name so that he could initiate the sell. He has had an income of “social security” as well as drawing house plans and performing construction work during these last six weeks. I have had no income. He has given me nothing except for a few vegetables from our garden. In January, David donated the $7,000. from selling off his silver coins to a “Harmony House” account which is in my name. I used part of that to complete our back yard and $1,000. was donated to a single mother and her children for their February rent. It is that “Harmony House” money that David had freely donated back in January that he must be referring to when he accused me: “You took all of my money from me, and still have it.”
Although I could have parsed this down considerably, or even divided this post into multiple postings, I decided to keep the continuity. Again, I will be publishing soon a full account of the tremendous struggles, deceit and emotional instability that David exhibited and WHY I chose the course I did which yielded the degree of healing David has realized up to now.
The question remains: Will David ever choose to take responsibility for his emotions and learn to harness them for GOOD? He will never, can never, have a deeply intimate relationship from here on out without doing so. Will he take responsibility to follow through with our agreement for him to sell the house and pay me the $50,000. for my investment into it? I own the cupboards and the landscaping. My furnishings largely adorn the interior. I assisted in the sub-contracting as well as in most of the steps along the way in its construction. Again, he repeatedly acknowledged that he was building it for me to establish “Harmony House.” I freely gave his children my car. I invested 24/7 in loving him, caring for him, teaching and assisting him to come to know himself and listen to and honor both his feelings and others’. Although I had witnessed much emotional development and healing, he is still obviously very weak and volatile. Until he truly decides to own his emotional immaturity and take responsibility for his mental life and feelings and how he acts upon those, he will not be able to maintain or further his progress. Although I mentored him through innumerable “temper tantrums,” and reflected off much mental (and physical, I have photos) abuse from him, yet he owns none of that. Meanwhile, he lives in a house partly filled with my furnishings, refusing to make good on our agreed-upon settlement so that Krystal and I can move forward and find stability and a home.
I now segue into “Harmony House.”
Although I did not understand my initial “call” from the depths of my being to “Sell all I have. I am needed in South America” in June of 2008, nevertheless, I obeyed. I had been operating a very successful and deeply meaningful in-home daycare, preschool, grossing about $6,000. per month for the year previous. I eagerly gave everything away to answer my call.
The following is taken from my Quora post of January 17, 2017, exactly 18 months ago tomorrow as I explore and explain “Harmony House”: https://www.quora.com/Heroes-Has-anyone-ever-literally-saved-the-world/answer/Kimberly-Davis-Wallis
For those who have found their way to and through the “Marvelous Work and a Wonder,” here are a couple of the “prophecies” made concerning me and my role:
“Oh, blessed day when some unselfish “wise one” shows up with the technology, the means, and the desire to not want to make a profit off of providing the human race with life, liberty, and most importantly…
…the pursuit of happiness.
That type of person surely can’t be from this planet!”
“More than likely, Kimberly Wallis will be the one appointed to watch over the funds of the WMF*, (though she might not know it yet 🙂 ) so it is to her that those will be directed who want to get involved financially in that foundation.”
*WMF “Widow’s Mite Foundation,” more recently known as the Worldwide United Foundation, but now christened “Harmony House.”
The following is taken from my blog post of March 10, 2009 while in Ecuador:
Saturday, Krystal and I got up very early and started out with Luis and his family via their car. Partway to Puerto Quito, traffic was stalled because of a landslide. Huge boulders and piles of mud filled the road. As we waited for it to be cleared by the tractors and crew, Marcela, Luis’ wife, commented that they had been inundated by an inordinate amount of rain over the last few months. Interesting! (Right about the time I had found The Sealed Portion there was unprecedented flooding very near my house in Santa Clara, Utah… Hmmmm.)
Arriving at Puerto Quito, Luis took care of his business there at the school site and then realized that his brakes were broken on the car. While he worked on the car, the others of us walked up and down the main street of town. Groups of pre-teen homeless boys, like swarms of bees, molested the local shopkeepers, kicking at their metal doors and otherwise making their lives, obviously, frustrated. I thought of my own Spencer (12) and Parker (10) and realized that it could easily be “them” in this situation if it were reversed.
After fixing the car and quite a lengthy investigation, Luis was able to find the name and whereabouts of the English teacher. When we found his house, both he and his wife, Miriam, happened to be home and graciously invited us in. As Marcela needed to be back to work in Quito that evening, we just had a short amount of time to visit. I gave them my copy in English of the prospectus I had prepared of Harmony House. Bolivar read through it and asked questions (in his halting English) while his wife gleaned what she could. Excitedly, she called the “Governor” of the province and was able to get me a spur-of-the-moment meeting with her.
When we arrived at the governor’s office, I was sweaty and “glistening” from the high humidity and dressed in Capri pants and a white T-shirt, my hair pulled back in a pony tail—not how one would typically dress for the occasion, but I’m sure it was all perfect. I was at peace.
As we waited a few minutes, Bolivar seemed to proceed to attempt to “sell” me on why Puerto Quito needed Harmony House more than any other place in Ecuador. (Although my heart filled with the disparity of the situation of so many young, needy children—as well as adults, I was beaming inside that I might have just found the match between my burning desire and others’ needs being fulfilled!) When the Governor came, I was introduced and then the three of them, Luis, Bolivar and Miriam presented my heart’s vision—at least I believe they did, as it was all done in Spanish and I only understood bits and pieces. They waited after asking me if I knew the meaning of her name “Narciza” (“the attribute of the human psyche characterized by a great amount of admiration of oneself; self love”—I had to look it up to be sure after I had gotten home :-)). Not remembering the exact definition, still I responded that with that name, she must be perfect for her job. 🙂
As they commenced talking about Harmony House, it was obvious that Narciza was only partially interested and had a great many things weighing on her mind as she proceeded to open and read her mail. Occasionally she would ask questions or make comments. Although I have gotten somewhat capable of understanding spoken Spanish, I have never heard anyone speak as rapidly as she did and therefore, could glean very little from her words.
Narciza seemed greatly intrigued that someone (me) from the United States would come to her country and desire to truly help. I realized that she was focused on the “milliones” of dollars that it would require to facilitate my plan and she emphatically presented that they had no money to offer, though they could donate land. I interceded as best I could that “the focus is NOT on the money, but on the hearts and the hands of willing people.” I told her that I believe that everyone in the world has a beautiful heart, although some seem tightly closed at the present. There are a great many that see the grave situation of the present world and would like to help, but few have the proper vision of how to go about this.
I shared my belief that there are many people who could help in some way (large or small), and though some considered me “loco”, we each needed to proceed in our own unique way, even if not understood by others. One might have a box of left-over tile from a building project. Another may be moving to a smaller home and have children’s books, musical instruments, clothes, furniture or other materials that would be helpful to donate to the children. Another may have a great desire to manually work, thereby dedicating a month/ summer/ retirement/ rest of their life to building up and maintaining the facility or helping “parent” the children. Another may have money to donate but no interest or ability to directly help. Another might want to personally volunteer, but not have the money to get here. Yet another may have great organizing abilities to oversee the volunteers, etc. etc. I shared that this project, I believe, was one that was greatly needed by all the people in the world and that this first one would serve as a prototype for others and that, I believe, Harmony Houses will dot the globe some day.
Especially considering the current economic situation of the United States and the rest of the world, it is highly likely that this project will end up benefitting many people that never would have imagined themselves involved—or their children or grandchildren.
Not only that, but I have already met many people right here in Ecuador that have expressed interest in helping with this project, again, each in their own unique way.
Harmony House will be mostly self-sustaining in that most of the food will be produced on site through the fruit trees and gardens grown and tended there. Where possible, the power, sewage and water will be as efficient, even self-sufficient, as possible. Also, the children will be taught all the basic skills (at least to some degree) of running the community, such as gardening, maintaining the facilities, cleaning, helping to prepare the basic meals, caring for the clothes, etc. Depending on their interests and desires, they will be able to have further, more intensive training in any of these areas.
Lighthouse Academy, the sister component of Harmony House, is the name of the type of education that will be in place at Harmony House. In this system, the curriculum is largely determined by the child’s heart. Literature, reading, writing, arithmetic, music will all be taught utilizing “the classics” but the GREATEST classic for each child will be the “book” they “write” through their own experiences. There will be much freedom during the day to pursue their individual desires and become proficient in the areas of their choosing. This will be done through mentoring, individual study, group projects, or in other ways determined by their area of interest and in consultation with their educational advisors.
Because of time constraints and language impediments, I did not completely “flesh out” the Harmony House concept in our brief (probably 20 minute) meeting—nor will I here. However, I truly see Harmony House as a powerful way to mend the world, through the hearts and hands of those willing to help. Not only will the children be raised to live healthy, empowered, Joy-filled lives that benefit many others as well, but the outlying community itself will be blessed. Yes, there will be less and less “swarms” of molesting or haunting street children, but the effect will be much greater than that. Unlike any other program, Harmony House is not a barricaded structure but instead depends upon interaction with others.
The principles taught and lived at Harmony House are those that I have discovered and implemented in my own life and with my own children. They are the ones that created apparent miracles in the lives of the children in my preschool in the States and that have created rippling out effects from those who have attended my seminars. They are the very same principles that I have earnestly sought (and found) and been writing about in my books. Yet they are more pure and feasible now, because of my experiences. These principles are all about respecting all others (and HOW to do that) while living happy, empowered, healthy lives.
Only those with a degree of understanding and a desire to master these principles will be allowed to interact with the children within Harmony House. I believe that we will see similar results: physical bodies as well as emotions will be healed, intellect and creativity unseen before will be unleashed, and a peace and Joy will be found within each heart and, thus, within the collective interaction of all those living and helping there.
Although in no way opulent, Harmony House will be built, run and maintained with a high quality of workmanship and materials. The flower-graced lawns and the attention to detail of each structure will all echo the theme of respect and beautiful harmony. Music and laughter, learning and creativity will sing through the interactions allowed and encouraged by the setting.
People from all over the world who agree to the principles of H.H. (all hinging on a correct understanding and living of the “Golden Rule”), who have a craft or interest to share, will serve as “mentors” for the children who have similar interests. Those from the nearby communities will be invited to participate in periodic concerts and art shows or other “performances” where the children will perform and sell through “admission” and individual transactions the pieces they have been working/learning on. In this way, they will gain a sense of pride in their accomplishments, gain “feedback” from others, prepare for their future, as well as earn spending (or saving) money that they might choose to utilize for desired “things” (such as chocolate bars, iPods, things not considered “basic necessities” and provided by H.H.). By the time of maturity, these children will be prepared to enter out into the greater community as a true, whole, healed, happy, productive adult, ready to pursue an occupation of their passion and training as well as continue to interact in productive, empowering ways.
Plato said it best, “At the touch of love…everyone becomes a poet.”
As our short discussion went on, with me mostly listening to the others, I watched as the Governor’s composure visibly relaxed and her countenance brightened. I will meet again with Narciza in a couple weeks to share the concept further, but…she enthusiastically agreed to donate 30 hectares (74 acres) to Harmony House—and we will begin in May. We parted with the warm hug of sisters.
In the parking lot, Miriam asked the ages that I would be interested in helping. I responded from birth to 18—or maturity. Surprised, she volunteered that her job is working with the homeless infants of the area and that there are over 1500 homeless orphans between the ages of 0-5 years old (usually sick and needy) in that small province of about 17,000 people.
As we drove home, I had my mind flood with understanding and awareness of how to proceed. I realized that this first community of homes would deal with only those of that age group (0-5) and that the next Harmony House could deal with more or with older children, and the next one with teenagers, until we had taken care of the needs of the community. Based upon these same principles, healing communities could be established for the sick and elderly.
I am also thrilled with the prospects of what this will do for the surrounding province. Of course a sense of hope will be restored. Knowing that people from the States and other places of the world are taking a real, hands-on interest in THEM will produce a heightened sense of pride in their dwellings and community. Morale will go up as the town physically cleans up in preparation for their visitors. Visiting mentors from throughout the world will probably spend time frequenting some of the local shops and restaurants, interacting with their previously unknown brothers and sisters. Camaraderie will be established.
Those who volunteer in various ways will find they experience a completely different kind of “health retreat”. Although we will all work “by the sweat of thy brow”, hearts and bodies will be mended through the attention to fresh, raw fruits and vegetables, fun physical activity in an incredible setting, while reaching out to help heal others. Those who thrill to interact with children will find a joy unknown before because of the joyful principles lived there. Those who thrill to be noticed for their mastery and contributions to society (through their mentoring and help in the community) will find a great joy through their interested “audience.” And, of course, the children. They will have their physical and emotional needs met, thus freeing them to really live meaningful, productive lives while they discover WHO they truly are.
I will need to train those who will be helping and interacting by presenting my “JOY of Harmony” Seminars, thus finding increased joy in that outlet myself. Interacting with and seeing the healing and growth of the children and others will also bring me tremendous joy. And, possibly, my own children will be able to come spend some time with me as volunteers. THAT would be the “cherry on top!” 🙂
Placed in family-type groups with about 10 children each, the “parents” will certainly be giving and serving a great amount of the time. Groundskeepers, handymen, transportation help, food handlers, “substitute parents,” educators and mentors of all types will all be very important to the community. However, no one (NO ONE!) will be given any kind of a luxurious salary. In fact, besides the basic needs being met (basic, fresh food; clothing; shelter; etc.) no one will be paid a dime. This is not about money! This is about finding our lives by losing our lives in the service of others.
Interestingly, Marcela explained that this last weekend (and particularly Sunday, March 8th) was the international (though not in the States) “El Dia de la Mujer”—“Day of the Woman”. How appropriate that the meeting and the invitation to begin caring for the needs of the children occurred during this time! I believe that when the compassionate side (typically relegated to women) of more and more of us is acted upon (irrespective of gender), the children of the world will be cared for, the earth will be cleaned up, and the quality of life for each one of us will be enhanced in like manner.
I believe that there are many who are waiting and hoping that the governments and/or the religions of the world and/or “alien beings” arriving will do something that will “save us.” But, just perhaps, it will be from the proper governing of our own individual actions as prompted by our pure hearts (the “Temple” of our souls). Perhaps as we all do our own part, no matter how tiny or grand, in a way that brings us personal happiness, we can find a world of peace and joy for all.
I believe that there are many ancient scriptures that point to this day; many esoteric writings that describe our time. Without quoting any of them in this venue, but allowing each reader to form their own thoughts and understandings, I do offer that ONLY by focusing on the “least among us” (and these children without homes, parents, food, and so many of the other “necessities” that most of us take for granted certainly qualify as “the least of the least”) we will be bringing peace and a greater sense of fulfillment to our own hearts as we help to bring a greater quality and quantity of JOY to theirs—and to the world.
I find it of interest that Harmony House and the true uniting and cleansing of the world is being initiated here in Latin America. Perhaps these people, in their poverty-stricken, most of them far-from-materialistic-state are most prepared for the inception of these principles. It will be most interesting to see if there are those from the rest of the world who will be able to truly reach down deeply into their own hearts and make the kind of difference that only they can make.
Although, perhaps, not “our brother’s keeper”, we are our own. As we live true to our own inner promptings we also find ourselves doing that which is most helpful to others, too. I beseech each interested reader to ask themselves: “What can I do?”
After enough of us have united together, perhaps the “leaders” and governments will take note. Perhaps at that time the red-tape will be taken from the existing programs and the implementation of Harmony House will be changed somewhat.
For some unknown-to-me-then reason, I was “called” out of Ecuador in May 2009, before ever meeting again with Narciza. Although it made no sense, still I trusted Source that there must be some reason. Was it a timing issue? Did the Ecuadorian people just require me to help plant the initial seed idea? Like always, I walked through my transition back to the States… and beyond… knowing that I would one day understand. I have kept my contact with my dear friends, assuring them that, “yes, some day I will be back….”
IF YOUR heart has a waking dream, if YOU desire to do some good, the only True Good possible with your life…
I now invite you to conduct deep introspection; as the Widow with her Mite. What do YOU have to place upon the altar of humanity? This is NOT about “money”, though that may be a temporary variable. Do you have time? Communication skills and or contacts with whom to share this post? Extra materials that might be helpful? IF money is your “mite,” then yes, of course, it will be gratefully received and implemented… transparently… to lay the foundation and kick-start Harmony House into working order.
I have dedicated my life, every breath I take, every thought I think, everything I do, to further the cause of global “Harmony House.” This house in which I presently dwell (in January 2017), named and consecrated “Harmony House,” I now have the opportunity to purchase so that it is only and completely within my stewardship, so that it is not entangled with any ulterior motives. This will be my first task: establish the security of the structural building “on a firm foundation” so that the rest of the work of establishing global harmony can proceed surely. To have a Harmony House I must have a house. Though I do believe I will return at some time to Ecuador to assist in the further appendage there, I desire now to create the prototype for my vision HERE, in southern Utah. Today is the day. I am one of the ones “called.” Hearing and heeding my “call,” I “elect” myself.
Again, I give my all. If there are others who resonate and wish to get involved, please do! Share this post worldwide. May it go viral. Scour your closets, your mind, whatever assets you might have. The poor are everywhere. Some of the poorest of the poor are those who have no clue they are not “rich.” Yet, they are poor in “spirit” and know it not. But those who “come unto me” I will feed. I will bind up their wounds. I will assist them to heal. Body. Mind. Spirit. As we each join hand-in-hand, the day WILL come when we will have saturated the globe, reached every hungry soul, become, once again, a global sisterhood.
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We CAN Each… We MUST Each join together in global harmony. One family. One sociality. Brothers and sisters all.
Dear Reader, I have covered much ground within this post. I hope you feel of my heart. I invite your sincere and open-minded comments. I also invite you to join with me. We must begin sometime. What about NOW? What about with US, you and I? We do not need to wait for a “Christ” to be humane for us. We cannot rely upon a government or any outside-mandated force. The call comes from within. My heart has heard it. Does Your heart hear the call? There are many hearts who hold pieces of our global puzzle. Let us unite together, employing emotional maturity and with the “seal of the Father in each of our foreheads”… let’s GET IT DONE! You may wish to prayerfully review Matthew 25, paying special heed to verses 31 through 46. https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew+25&version=NIV
Please let me know how *YOU* can help.
Together, roaring if necessary, standing for Truth always, meekly rejoicing with gratitude as we each offer up our “two mites,” we can BE Living Examples of *L.O.V.E.*
P.S. Peace… and Victory… through L.O.V.E.
In my pursuit of Real Truth, I have given up everything. Crawling through the “eye of the needle,” I have learned the *mysteries* and am now giving my life to assist YOU to dis-cover Who *YOU* really are, along with your unique gift to offer humanity. As you learn to seek (in the right place and with purified intent), you WILL find treasures of lasting value, along with every promised reward. Together, we will establish a society of humane beings and live life ALIVE, on PURPOSE, and with a sociality unequaled… because we will each BE and view each other as equally and profoundly DIVINE! Please… catch this Hope and Vision and join with me.