Krystal shared with me this morning a snippet that she remembered from her night’s dream in which she had hugged and felt close to David. Earlier this morning, she had stood on the scale and had lost five pounds overnight, going from 154 to 149. A coincidence? I don’t think so. Here’s more of the story.
Krystal has been raised primarily as an only child. Her older siblings have entered sporadically into her world, but have not been particularly or consistently close. Her first four years, though, we filled with other “siblings” as I conducted an in-home daycare/ preschool. I have written recently about some of the principles which I utilized for those young children (as well as Krystal and her older brothers and sisters) which brought emotional strength and respect for self and others. (http://loveistheanswer.info/q-is-it-better-to-share-our-struggles-with-someone-we-trust-or-keep-them-private/ )
Shortly before her fourth birthday, I received my “call” to “sell everything and follow Christ,” that I was “needed in South America.” See my post where I share more of that experience here: ( http://loveistheanswer.info/l-o-v-e-part-4-l-o-v-e-in-action/ ) Krystal and I boarded the plane to Ecuador soon after she turned four. That decision to follow my inner guidance even and especially when so unprecedented a call was profoundly beneficial to changing everything in my world, bringing me closer in every way to who I Am in the eternal scheme of things. Nevertheless, with that choice, many other course-attunements followed which brought me further and further away from “the beaten path” that “normal” mortals walk. And through it all, Krystal has walked beside me.
Though Krystal’s life has certainly not been the “cookie-cutter” American child’s childhood, she has always felt safe and secure, loved and respected… no matter what our current “shelter” or physical situation. Nearly five years ago, David entered into our lives. Please hear: I have tremendous love and gratitude for him. He is a precious human being and our personal connection is eternal and strong. I will love him forever. However… his entrance into our lives, brought phenomenal opportunity for the three of us (and many others) to shift and change even more, and… potentially learn.
Krystal was thrilled to finally have a “daddy.” Yet, not having become emotionally strong nor yet willing to KNOW his actual, empowered and integrous True Self, David brought with him learned counterfeit ways of interacting with life and others. Within a short time, Krystal began putting on pounds for emotional protection as her eyesight additionally quickly shifted… to become nearly identical to his. In this, her spirit was saying: “I want to see the world as he does. I want to understand him. I want to be loved by and accepted by him.” He offered her his back-up pair of glasses. Though they each tried, to form a mutually respecting relationship, to the degrees that they were able, Krystal never felt completely safe or validated. She quickly put on excess weight as an emotional “shield and protection” to her heart.
When Krystal and I moved to Salt Lake City this summer, she was up to 162 pounds. Although she has tremendous resilience and a vivacious love and respect for all people, to carry this weight on her 5’2″ frame, felt uncomfortable and she vowed to rid herself of it and to return to balance in every way. However, though she ate “an apple a day” and salads and otherwise healthy food, her excess weight was persistent. When her ninth-grade year began, she was hired as an after-school janitor. This extra physical activity and the long hour days meant less time to eat and less appetite. In the 10 weeks before we moved and it was required that she terminate her employment, she had managed to lose eight pounds.
Shortly after our relocation to southern Utah, Krystal auditioned and was selected for her upcoming (new) school musical: “Mamma Mia!” She has been thrilled and has enjoyed the preparatory experiences. This increased her incentive, giving her even more determination than ever to take off her remaining weight. Yet, it has not budged. This past Friday, while we were ice skating (well, they were ice skating, I was merely “learning”), one of her friends told us about the “keto diet” she was on. Intrigued, I did some research and felt a surprising “yes” from within myself before sharing what I had learned with Krystal. As trusting of me as she is, Krystal immediately and enthusiastically decided to try it. This was a huge “leap of faith”/ desperation for an avowed “almost vegetarian.” She promptly began the next morning, Saturday, with me participating to assist her. Sunday (day 1) she had lost a pound. Monday (day 2) she had “regained” that pound. Today, Tuesday (day 3) she went from 154 to 149. Five pounds! She was elated and saw the prior seemingly impossible goal turn possible. (She wants to be 125 pounds by opening night… three weeks away.)
While showering this morning, as is often my experience, neurons connected within my brain on a subconscious level and I was gently opened up to “intelligence” that “I,” Kimberly had not yet put together. I was shown how integrally connected Krystal’s excess weight has been with her feelings of being unsafe with and invalidated by David. Please realize: David is a beautiful human being! He did the best that he was currently capable of to accept Krystal in his life, providing the kindness, the physical and relationship skills that he had at his disposal. We both love and appreciate him dearly! However, without having earnestly undertaken his emotional curriculum and applying the “Sermon on the Mount” (Matthew 5: 3-12 especially, where “Jesus” teaches the “Stairway to Heaven,” or rather, the path to emotional/ spiritual adulthood), living in close contact with his emotional volatility created Krystal’s perceived need for self-protection. No longer living in close physical contact with him, Krystal has been able to regain her self-respect and feelings of safety.
Because of the personal nature (of the other persons) of what I have just shared, I pondered deeply before including the above in a public post. Yet, my role is transparency and assisting all of humanity… as each prepares him or herself, to gain emotional maturity. I feel our experiences are meant to give insight and encouragement to others. Plus… each of the two individuals in the above scenario have given permission and are aware that their lives are meant to and will be used as I serve all.
Recently, I felt guided to organize a small group “Prayer Circle.” Meeting regularly, we become “One,” and unify our focused attention upon certain individuals that we feel impressed need healing light. With pure intent, and with one mind and one heart, we gratefully shower warm Light into these individuals and their needs, whatever they be, as well as to more general situations. I will speak more of our “Prayer Circles” in the near future, but suffice it to say, both Krystal and David have been subjects of our loving healing intention. Krystal’s recent “miracle” is one of several indications of Light having been received and utilized. I feel very grateful.
Krystal’s “dream” this morning, simultaneous to such a significant drop in weight, are both connected to her participation in these prayer circles in addition to the conversations she and I have had teamed with her desires to only have love and respectful feelings in her heart for David and all others. Truly, the physical and emotional and mental aspects are all inter-related and dependent upon each other for health and balance. When one part of our self heals, the others align as well. Especially as Krystal has been sincerely and actively pouring out her love for David, the energy-rebound effect requires that she realize healing as well. She received most welcome proof of that this morning!
Consider this hypothetical situation:
Olympic athletes gather before their events begin and each one is handed a trophy representing that they are the Grand Prize Winner. Their challenge becomes holding onto and keeping integrous, the prize. As inappropriate actions are taken (mistakes are made), portions of the trophy are cut off, graffitied-over, or sanded away, depending upon the action’s (or IN-action’s) perceived gravity. In this scenario, either of three scenarios are possible: 1) All contestants finish with a fully-intact grand prize. 2) No contestant finishes with a fully-intact grand prize. 3) Some contestants’ grand prizes remain in their original, integrous condition, while others have been changed. IF mis-translation of the rules of participating are mixed in with confusing input from others (“philosophies of men mingled with scripture”), then it is highly likely that the participants begin to seek alternative avenues and replace the integrous safe-keeping of their already received “trophy” for: “Girls just wanna have fun!” Thus, temporary “fun” supplants eternal “JOY!”
As backwards as this seems… Who wins a grand prize before even competing?!… this is the set-up for mortal life. Consider that when one enters life as a mortal, the physical body IS the Grand Prize and that keeping it complete and in tact through one’s emotional development is the objective. This is my proposed actuality. “Before the last rose petal falls” was the symbolic time appointed the “Beast” in the story “Beauty and the Beast.” And it was during that time frame that he had to realize mutual love with another. Here we have another clue hidden within a child’s tale.
Various religions claim belief in the physical body being a “temple to the most high god,” yet they have lacked the understanding of WHO that “most high god” IS and HOW to “worship” that god within their Temple. Yet, the promise has been given that they “should run and not be weary, should walk and not faint, and that the destroying angel should pass them by.” Additional promises for the body include: “Health in the navel, marrow in the bones, strength in the loins and in the sinews, power in the priesthood” upon their self and their biological and spiritual posterity. It is rare that a religious individual even fully understands their stated promises. “Priesthood” (“the power to act in god’s name”) is nothing more or less than utilizing Intelligently and Wisely the pure Light within them self to assist the needs of others.
Others sing and express belief that they are a “Child of God,” yet few connect the rest of the dots to realize that children are intended to grow UP and become of the same species as their “parent.” IF a parent is a “God” then that makes the child an immature “God.” And the immaturity is in the emotional realm. Thus, “Jesus'” curriculum is for the “poor in spirit” to gain emotional wealth through mastery of their emotions (Matthew 5: 3-12).
Few people in our culture today know any who have overcome death. Yet, death is the “final exam” for mortals. Of those stories floating around within mainstream awareness of the occasional individual who “translates,” most are scoffed at or chalked up as just that, “stories.” Thus, one after another falls into the ditch and is buried, having not realized the “fullness of her creation.” Yet, the human body is the most incredible instrument for gathering experience, for acquiring the incredible feelings possible, with “JOY” being the projected eternal target for each sincere “Child of God” wannabee.
This is where the Vagus Nerve comes in. Vagus (Greek for “wanderer”) is the tenth cranial nerve (designated by the Roman numeral… X) and is the prominent player in regards to a person overcoming his or her mortal “tests” and growing UP into emotional maturity. The Vagus Nerve is directly responsible for one’s inner eyesight which is accessed through the Pineal Gland. When the Ventral Vagus is the “overseer” upon one’s mental throne, then one is capable of clear and intelligent seeing. Without it, one is spiritually “blind.”
There is much more to the saying “What you see is what you get” than most people realize. “Jesus” knew this and said, “The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light. But if thine eye be evil, thy whole body shall be full of darkness. If therefore the light that is in thee be darkness, how great is that darkness.” (Matthew 6:22-23) In other words, if the Ventral Vagus is empowered then one’s pineal gland will be “turned on” and capable of imbuing the body with light/ intelligence. If this is not the case, then one is filled with darkness, ignorance and foolishness. And “how great is that darkness.”
Though we all have the same potential, yet we have been given opportunity and ability to over-ride the original pure programming according to our individual free will to implant within ourselves alternative instincts. Realize that when trauma ensues for any one of us, that often those defensive strategies that are critical for the short-run become locked-in patterns of behavior. The body pays a price for maintaining these defenses too long by creating chronic stress. Stress of any kind indicates that one is out of one’s “right mind” by having overcome the ventral vagus nervous system with either the dorsal (through depression or immobilization of any kind) or with the sympathetic nervous system and its patterns of “fight or flight” (ADHD, aggression, anger, etc.) One of the reasons chronic stress is so toxic is that it both diverts the body’s resources to support an ongoing danger-defense response and, by essentially hijacking the autonomic nervous system, it reduces our capacity to regulate the health-producing physiological states that depend on the autonomic nervous system.
Without the vagus on the “throne” overseeing the tranquility and intelligence of our kingdom, one is operating on a far lower program and incapable of forming and keeping deep emotional bonds with others because she has closed herself off from her own true feelings. Additionally, one’s inner voice of conscience (“enmity”) is “passed feeling” and, unless brought to the fore-front again, incapable of becoming one’s “Overseer.”
Like a prize violin falling off its perch and becoming grossly out of tune, when one is faced with a life threat, the nervous system may “retune.” Unless one is zealously aware of re-aligning one’s emotions (“a-tone-ment”) multiple times each day, one’s inner awareness of the safety of one’s environment towards detecting danger cues might get stuck into reading cues of “danger” and “threat,” even when the cues are actually neutral. In this state, which is any state where the ventral vagus is dis-empowered, people look with suspicion upon others, misinterpreting other’s words and intentions. This is behind society’s frenzied and chronic stress. Few people feel safe and trusting anymore. Because the ventral vagus is the operating system for correct diagnosis of body language and interpreting words and emotional cues, when it has been subdued by one of the other operating systems (the dorsal or the sympathetic), all kinds of havoc and relationship issues accrue. One is, at that time, “deaf” and “blind” to any accuracy of relating with another, much less capable of hearing his or her own “still small voice.”
Today, many individuals find themselves triggered into immobility (by the dorsal branch taking charge) or fear-based mobility (through the sympathetic nervous system at the helms) by a nasty boss, combative spouse, or alcoholic parent… rather than a raging tiger. Baffled by feelings of disengagement, dissociation, depression, and numbness (dorsal), or panic, anger and desires to fight (sympathetic), diagnoses may be offered. But any drug or therapy is simply a “band-aid” and a short-term fix, in other words, an inappropriate solution.
The key is Re-Balancing One’s Nervous System:
In short, one must send signals of soothing safeness that bypass the conscious to reach the most inaccessible part of the brain, reassuring it that the environment is, in fact, safe. The best way to do this is through the glorious injunction given by “Jesus” which corresponds with one being at the summit of one’s emotional control: “Rejoice with exceeding gladness… even when persecuted for righteousness’ sake.” Matthew 5: 11-12)
Tomorrow, I will offer many other ways to “tune up” one’s emotional (and thus physical and mental) body.
In my pursuit of Real Truth, I have given up everything. Crawling through the “eye of the needle,” I have learned the *mysteries* and am now giving my life to assist YOU to dis-cover Who *YOU* really are, along with your unique gift to offer humanity. As you learn to seek (in the right place and with purified intent), you WILL find treasures of lasting value, along with every promised reward. Together, we will establish a society of humane beings and live life ALIVE, on PURPOSE, and with a sociality unequaled… because we will each BE and view each other as equally and profoundly DIVINE! Please… catch this Hope and Vision and join with me.