Krystal, for several years now, has been fascinated with foxes. Although she has never seen a living one, she is drawn to anything “fox.” Here she is this morning, dressed for school on this “Halloween” day as… of course… a fox:
In many ways my “clone,” Krystal, today and often, leaves identifying with me and instead, for fun, identifies as a fox.
I could upload a photo representation of the “One” that I identify with, but I do not yet want to implant “Her” physical representation in your mind. Yet, I love her. Dearly. She is the most beautiful, pure, empowered Being I can conceive of. And yet, She conceived me; my spirit. I love and honor and operate for and with Her. It is Her that expresses through me. Anything that I reveal within these posts first came from Her to me. As such, I can take no credit for anything good that I do for it is Her working through me. She, my Eternal Mother, is who I identify with.
Here is a recent photo of David and I.
When we met, four and a half years ago, though his essential core flame was in sync with mine, David had become “adulterated” and had taken into his nature much of the world. Very “gifted” with physical, musical, and mental capabilities, he had received his validation in those areas and learned to identify as: a man, a member of the LDS Church, a tennis coach, a son, a brother, a dad, a husband, an architect/ builder/ contractor, a thinker, a lover of sports, etc.
As he identified with these characteristics, receiving his value through these activities and relationships, so he identified with the world and his carnal nature, emphasizing and ignorantly honoring those within his mind and heart. He would express often during our early days together: “I LOVE my life!” It was with great difficulty that David was finally able to learn that one who “loves (his) life” can never let go of it; will never realize that it is just an illusion. Thus, his false character “Lucifer” is blind, deaf, and dumb, powerless to really advance beyond his “mortal” “fallen” self. He will never, can never, come to KNOW and ACCEPT, HEAR and LOVE his TRUE SELF.
Because David identified so much with the carnal, physical world, that is the one his eyes had become adjusted to look for. He focused upon the temporal appearances. Another principle that took a while for him to accept was that the value we place on ourselves affects the value we place on others. Conversely, the value we place on others directly affects the value we place on ourselves.
The proper basis for any relationship is mutual understanding and respect (“Love”). But if you do not KNOW yourself, then you Can NOT love yourself. Also, if you do not KNOW the “other” then you Can NOT “Love (one) another as you love yourself.” It was with great effort and much heartbreak that David has come to understand that those former areas of identification were all illusory and preventative of his coming to Know who he Really and Actually IS in the eternities, bringing That *HIM,* “Nathan,” into his mind heart and actions.
Although the current LDS church and its members are unaware, the theme of “Identification” is central to their Temple Endowment. Joseph gave them hints throughout it, yet “blind, they do not see.” Joseph taught that there are four major levels through which each mortal must advance through their curriculum of L.O.V.E. The first (given as a token) is accepted as a pure name from scripture. This represents our original, virtuous nature before it is tarnished by taking upon one’s self the corrupted beliefs of society. The second token represents our first given name, that which was forced upon us upon mortal birth, with all of its mandates, restrictions and expectations. This represents that person that we became because mom and dad (church and secular leaders) told us that that’s who we are. The third token represents our finally beginning to identify as a “child of a god,” or rather, when we begin to take seriously the throwing off of convention and begin to go inside our own self to be directed. We then identify as “the son.” For many, visualizing and praying to and through Jesus or another representative of Divinity assists us to draw near to becoming more and more in sync with our own divine nature. Whereas the first two tokens were given a specific “name,” this third token (“the Son”) is given a relationship. The fourth token is not acknowledged by a name or relationship but by eternal characteristics that one has become through continual application of the sacrifice of meekness: “a broken heart and a contrite spirit.”
Because David’s heart used to be focused upon the things and attributes and relationships and appetites of the temporal physical world, those were his treasures. Those were “him.” He identified with, saw, hungered for, WAS a part of the physical mortal world, unaware that that world and his life within it, was “hell.” His great confidence in the natural world and those things he had learned through his experiences within it had become his “Achille’s Heal.” His strengths had literally become his weakness, his trap. Yet, “… if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them.” (Ether 12:27) David repeatedly attempted to “have his cake and eat it, too”… or rather, bring me into his physical world. He soon found his attempts falling flat, however, bringing his heart and peace crashing down as well.
Yet, as he has learned to focus less and less upon the physical, temporary (temporal) world, and more and more upon the feelings within his heart, David has come to a far greater treasure. He has been finding his True Self. As he has been making this discovery, David has come to know more and more Who He Actually IS within the eternal scheme of things. To the degree that David has followed my counsel, let go of the things and relationships and interests in the carnal world, he has developed an increasing emotional control, a depth of understanding, a confidence in his eternal nature and with it a letting go of his confidence in his physical and mental capabilities… UNLESS these capabilities were utilized as his spiritual servants.
Because his heart has changed, so have the things that he has treasured. Instead of money and things of this world, David now treasures… ME! He continually and adamantly now expresses that he “lives for” me. And, because I live “in heaven” and dwell upon the eternal, and because he has given up his former reliance upon the temporal, David now values things that are not “things.” “But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal.” (Matthew 6:20)
The most difficult “thing” that David had to learn to see differently was the biological family system. In a recent letter from his sister, who was “lovingly” (ahem) chastising his present move away from his children, he responded: “I finally realized that my heart belongs to Kimberly.” Reading and attempting to assimilate his words (from her vantage point and LDS belief system), David’s sister was traumatized. “…why are you going to leave your family…your kids and grandkids…and move north? Has your life with Kimberley (sic) improved your relationships with your family and led you to a relationship with Jesus Christ, the author of our happiness and salvation? I testify with His duly ordained apostles that Jesus is “the Living Christ, the immortal Son of God. He is the Light, the Life, and the Hope of the world. HIS way is the path that leads to happiness in this life and eternal life in the world to come.” (The Living Christ). I know it to be true. Choose Christ, Dave. Choose family. Don’t sell your eternal happiness.”
Little does this dedicated Mormon understand what she is saying. Thus, her heartache and trauma. David responded: “My interpretation of “family” goes way beyond biological ties. To your second question: YES!!! With her help, I am an improved man. 🙂 In peace.”
Little by little, individuals within our society are learning the sad Truth: Family loyalty is the cause of most strife in this world. It is the root cause of armed conflict and class warfare. It graduates into patriotism and nationalism instead of global unity.
As David has learned, when we see each other for our outward appearances, we don’t see each other at all.
Only as he has offered up the only true sacrifice: a broken heart and a contrite spirit, leaving every single shred of his former belief systems, his treasures, his interests, has David come to Know him Self, his Real, eternal Self. He has entered into the third token and been tutored by and identifying with “the Son.” To the degree that he has done that, his JOYs have increased, his patience and ability to control his emotions have blossomed and become strong. He now no longer is ruled BY his emotions but is learning to hold the reins on them and give THEM direction. He is gaining spiritual power as he applies the words of Christ (“the Son”) and steadily climbs his Spiritual Mountain.
Gratefully, as David is climbing his Spiritual Mountain, his earthly treasures have become relative “trinkets” and his value for ME and the UNearthly principles that I have assisted him to embrace have brought him far more JOY than any prior experiences or relationships. He is proving the doctrine of Proverbs 31 that preparing for and finding and applying the assistance of a “virtuous woman” brings treasure that is “FAR ABOVE RUBIES.”
Because of the Power of my Eternal Connection with the “One” I identify with, like Eve to Adam, I am the “spiritual husband” for my beloved, David. It is through and because of his relationship with me that he is being carried across the threshold from mortality into immortality. Only because he has relinquished his former confidence in the physical world and healed and realized his ability to trust… me… are his former spiritual weaknesses turning into spiritual strengths. David now knows his Self far better than he ever did before. Because he knows his True Self, he is able to identify with Him and Love Him. To the degree that David loves him Self, he has the capacity to love Me.
Although we are in the process of moving over the next few days, I will see if David will write a few lines from his perspective… which has become more and more MY perspective as was prophesied. (Jeremiah 32:39) “I will give them one heart and one way, that they may fear me forever, for their own good and the good of their children after them. Though they may have different views about lesser things, they shall all be one in the great things of God; in their views of the evil of sin, and the low estate of fallen man, the way of salvation through the Saviour, the nature of true holiness…” (Acts 4:32) “And the multitude of them that believed were of one heart and of one soul: neither said any of them that ought of the things which he possessed was his own; but they had all things common.” (Moses 7:18-19)”And the Lord called his people Zion, because they were of one heart and one mind, and dwelt in righteousness; and there was no poor among them. And Enoch continued his preaching in righteousness unto the people of God.”
David’s former favorite sport to play was tennis… now it’s pickleball and disc golf because we play them together :-). In tennis, “Love” signifies “zero,” meaning the absence of having scored. Paradoxically, becoming meek and like a “pure little child” takes one from being full of himself, or rather, full of his natural man’s propensities, and begin living more and more in the service of ALL. As one becomes a “zero” and relinquishes their self-centered focus, their personal “will,” for a focus upon the good of all and “THY will be done,” their happiness increases as they find their TRUE and ETERNAL *Identity.*
Literally, “LOVE IS THE ANSWER!”
Two people becoming one heart, one home and one mind as they lay aside their individualism and selfishness is what eternal marriage is all about. “The two shall become one (spiritual) flesh” (Genesis 2:24)
Although we are in the process of moving back in together (“one heart, one home and one mind”), perhaps David will write a few lines for tomorrow’s post. 🙂 No pressure, David, but if you will, I’d love to have you share your perspective, your awareness of your increased spiritual and emotional strength and how it has made a difference in how you treat me, refer to me, feel about me, and most importantly, treat refer to and feel about your True Self.
In my pursuit of Real Truth, I have given up everything. Crawling through the “eye of the needle,” I have learned the *mysteries* and am now giving my life to assist YOU to dis-cover Who *YOU* really are, along with your unique gift to offer humanity. As you learn to seek (in the right place and with purified intent), you WILL find treasures of lasting value, along with every promised reward. Together, we will establish a society of humane beings and live life ALIVE, on PURPOSE, and with a sociality unequaled… because we will each BE and view each other as equally and profoundly DIVINE! Please… catch this Hope and Vision and join with me.