When someone looks at you… what do they see?
That all depends on Who THEY Are. 🙂
The truism, “beauty is in the eye of the beholder,” truthfully reveals the fact that we see in others what we look for in life, what is important to us; and what we look for determines WHO WE ARE. Basically, “we ARE what we eat” (feast upon, seek, look for) with our eyes, both inner (imagination) and outer. Therefore, What someone sees when they look at you is determined by what they value and seek, their belief systems, the mental filters that have been affixed according to the life experiences they have had and how they have chosen to process and make sense of those experiences, creating belief systems that distort their eyes, filtering their awareness.
How old is the person doing the seeing? What foundational training experiences have they received?
My daughter and I lived for several months as minorities within a particular native American culture within the United States. Because I did not focus upon nor call attention to ethnicity, and because she had been raised mostly with only me as her principle care-giver, role-model, educator, value-provider…
at seven and a half, Krystal would not have had any context if you asked her the question, “What do you see when you look at me?”
She would have looked at you with a quizzical expression and probably asked, “What do you mean?”
I know this because I had the following experience with her.
Towards the end of her second grade year, living in Page, Arizona, attending a public school for the prior four months which was almost entirely, but not quite, “Navajo” (teacher, principal, classmates), Krystal arrived home one day, sharing a story from recess. She asked what the word “Navajo” meant. My visiting friend and I shared a brief glance as we realized that ethnicity and skin color had no context for Krystal yet.
Ardene and I tried various ways to explain to Krystal an entirely new way to use her eyes to look at and categorize people. Before that moment, she had never even noticed differences in skin color, eye shape, or the like. Instead, Krystal had viewed people as happy, kind, (or not), shiny or lacking a glow around them. It was only in this conversation that she was able to expand her understanding to view why she and her little friend (with Japanese ancestry) had had comments made about them. Only then was she capable of reflecting back upon other experiences and statements and realize that her teachers and classmates DID classify and judge her and themselves based upon skin color.
Yes, Krystal, like each child born, must be personally taught to focus the lens of their eyes in a specific manner. Most acquire this training subtly. Instead of viewing the aura of light surrounding a being, feeling the warmth and genuine energy emitted from their spirit, they learn to see the surface appearance, including the color of the skin, the clothes, and the manner of adornment. As such, children learn to judge, to classify, to group into mentally manageable orders of awareness. Children are carefully taught to lose their childlike innocence and wonder, their acceptance and appreciation of others, and to shift in their minds what “matters.”
Yet, before these lessons in segregation, pure little children do not use words, nor do they divide the world into parts. They do not know themselves to exist as a separate “me,” using the body as a point of reference, and so the world does not exist as a separate “not me.” For children, all is One.
The His-story of this world is largely the tale of fission. Division, setting one’s self apart from others (through receiving “holy priesthood power”), adorning one’s body with colors, jewelry, shiny minerals, or clothes that another does not have access to, all of these areas have been factors separating humanity into orders and ranks: financial privilege, gender, race, nationality, religion, opportunity for learning, physical attributes, and so forth.
Yet, NOW is the time, not for “fission,” but for “FUSION,” for reconnecting the “body of Christ.” NOW is the time to lay down one’s swords, white picket fences, focus not upon our differences but upon our shared inner light, keeping in continual view our common humanity. In this way, we reestablish ourselves as one singular human family, each learning who we are and our contribution to peaceful co-existence.
Some of the most unifying language ever written was not selected as part of the volume now called the “Holy Bible.” In the apocryphal work of 2nd Clement, the one known as Jesus is reported to have said: 9:6: “And so we should love one another, that we may all enter the Kingdom of God.” Then in 11:7: “If, therefore, we do what is righteous before God, we will enter into his kingdom and receive his promises, which no ear has heard nor eye seen, nor has it entered into the human heart.” 12:1-6: “For this reason, we should await the kingdom of God with love and righteousness every hour, since we do not know the day when God will appear.
I feel compelled to share publicly my experience leading up to October 8, 2002, a day that, for me, paralleled the Nephites’ receiving the gift of the Holy Ghost, entering into the “Kingdom of Heaven/God,” “and they knew it not.”
In the evening of August 15th, my first husband, “D,” and I, while on a “second-honeymoon” in Ogden Canyon, Utah, entered into a bookstore. I was immediately attracted to the pendulum display in which a rose quartz pendulum seemed peculiarly alluring. As I picked it up, it seemed to say to me that we (the quartz and I) had been together before and that I had, actually, created it. I was very intrigued and felt an instant bond with this pendulum that both surprised and amused me.
I then sat down and started working with the pendulum, asking questions, becoming amazed at what I was discovering. The next morning, I immediately reached for the pendulum again and continued my questioning, seeking for clarification on some of the answers I had gotten. According to what I was receiving… I was pregnant. The baby was due on October 8th of that year—a mere seven weeks away. I was excited! Perhaps I would be able to prove a new paradigm, something that I had never even considered before. Just maybe the nine months that had always seemed so “normal” a length to pregnancy did not have to be that long after all.
As I excitedly went into the other room to share this with “D,” he scowled and sharply retorted that I was making the pendulum work, that he could see my fingers moving! With his cold and condemning tone of voice and facial features, I felt attacked. I felt hurt and betrayed.
The next day, “D” admitted to me that he and his friends had played with a pendulum while teenagers and that they had made it work exactly as he had accused me of doing. I realized that “D” saw me through the eyes of HIS perspective which came from HIS experiences, HIS thoughts and actions. No wonder MY actions seemed suspect… he knew that HE had been dishonest.
After returning home, “D” and I recalled the pendulum experience with my dear friend who had been staying with the children. Michele stated, “Well, you can’t rely on a pendulum. They can just be a second witness of truth.” “D” immediately replied, “Yes, that’s what I think, too!” I felt inclined to agree with them, and yet I suddenly felt as if a spiritual hand was being placed over my mouth, stopping my utterance.
Wondering about this and wanting to only live and believe the highest truth, I sought for the answer. The next day, while lying down at naptime with my young ones, I was awakened. I felt the personage of Joseph Smith standing next to me in the room. He shared (to my heart’s understanding, not to my physical ears), “You are right, Kimberly. The pendulum is a gift to you from Father, just like the Urim and Thummim was a gift to me from Father, just like the Liahona was a gift to Lehi, and prophets throughout time have each been gifted in like manner.”
“The key to receiving truth is to have faith unwavering. When your faith wavers, your answers will, too. The day will come when you, yourself, will become a crystal, a Urim and Thummim. Then you will no longer need the pendulum. But for now, use it with faith and gratitude.”
This answer thrilled me, giving me the peace and conviction that I had sought. I immediately went downstairs to his office and shared it with “D,” I now felt Confident. Ready to proceed with my own unveiling and discovering of the crystal, the “Urim and Thummim” within myself.
So… As I continued on, realizing that I would give birth on October 8th (after having “lost” my newborn baby Kyle just four and a half months earlier), I was filled with the wonder of the miracle unfolding. I would often go to the pendulum for clarification on different issues. It would always acknowledge that I was indeed pregnant and right on track.
As I did not appear to be gaining weight or looking pregnant and as the time crept closer, I really puzzled over what I was going through. Yet, I remained in peace and knew that I was being guided. Just a few days before the “due date” I had my “ah-ha!” experience where understanding opened up within me. The baby that I was birthing, this child that I was carrying and prepared to deliver… was ME! Whatever the experience looked like, I was developing and changing and, come October 8th, I would be a “new” person. Was this my “translation?” Was this me becoming a “new man in Christ?”
Wow! What would happen? What would that look like? I had received that the child would be born at 11:30 pm. I went to bed with “D,” yet as I lay silent and rejoicing, I did not allow myself to go to sleep. Instead, I kept myself at a tremendously high “vibration” of love and gratitude, the highest constant energy level I could muster. Silently, I sang, “REJOICE, the Lord is King! Your Lord and King adore….” I triumphantly rejoiced in gratitude and praise as I lay silently in bed, awaiting my experience, whatever it would look like. A couple times I would doze off, immediately rousing myself and going right back to the highest state of gratitude and rejoicing praise. But then….. I woke up the next morning. In my bed. My skin felt the same. I got up and looked at myself in the mirror. Nothing had changed! I looked the same. What had happened? Had I failed? Had something happened but the memory just been taken from me? Was this just another “still birth?”
After not making any sense of this experience, I tucked it away in my heart. Somehow, I realized that at some later date, the understanding would be given. Like other experiences in my life, I continued on in faith.
Dear Reader, because of daily life and its demands continuing on on the heels of the day before, with no fanfare or spotlights, along with having no precedent to look to for understanding, some of the events and situations that transpired later, seemed completely unrelated to that experience of October 8, 2002. Or, more precisely, I had no idea to tie symptoms and other things back to this experience.
However, with hindsight, I much later saw that several general changes appeared shortly after that experience. One was that time lost the little importance it had had for me. Although I was aware of time and its passage for the sake of interacting with others and being respectful of their schedules and plans, time became for me alone, a non-issue. I found myself, when the need arose, having to deeply focus to be able to discern the current season of the year, the date or time of day. Time seemed to have transformed and dissolved. Along with that, all watches would stop functioning shortly after I would put them on. Several times over those next few months, as I would try to wear a watch, the battery would stop. I would be puzzled because each would have been brand new. Each watch, no matter the brand or style, would stop working after a few hours or days. After a short time, I stopped trying to wear “time.”
Years before, when I was first introduced to fresh wheat grass juice, I had felt a rush run through my arms immediately after my first sip. Entering my blood stream, it seemed to be waking up and energizing my cells. Now, I would often have that experience with greater and greater regularity without the wheatgrass juice or anything in my system. In fact, this feeling was more apparent on an empty stomach. At first I would wonder why. I came to realize that truly, my body had taken on life and I had been awakened. The buzz that I feel often now is my life energy.
Another intriguing situation I began to notice was how often I would shock myself and others. Particularly around water. Often, when sticking my hand under running faucet water, I will experience a small jolt of electricity.
My senses have become so very heightened. My ability to perceive a slight piece of hair on my arm is deeply unsettling to me. But not only my physical senses have been supercharged. Of most importance is the increase in understanding that I seem to have. Not just when in a state of meditation. The hairs upon my body seem to be literal antennae that stand up and receive “light and knowledge.” Truths just seem to jump out at me more easily than ever before. As I have applied myself to ponder on a certain subject of life, relationships, eternity, various seemingly un-related strands weave themselves together in the most amazing ah-ha’s. For me, life really has become alive!
Along with my increased ability to perceive and understand, my confidence has continued to blossom, giving me strength, encouragement, and the capacity to walk forward over what would be the next sixteen extremely taxing years. Also through hindsight I realize that at some point, if not initially, my will changed. I have continual focus upon assisting all of humanity to develop into the peaceful sociality prophesied. My lens has shifted completely from any bit of “MY will be done” to “THY will be done.” “What is the best for the entirety of the human race that I can do to advance this cause right now?” is my continual question.
However, again, since *I* didn’t look different, and because I had no memory of any special “Holy Ceremony” or anything significant having occurred, it took me some time to begin connecting the dots of my life.
In the Book of Mormon, it describes my experience in these terms; “And ye shall offer for a sacrifice unto me a broken heart and a contrite spirit. And whoso cometh unto me with a broken heart and a contrite spirit, him will I baptize with fire and with the Holy Ghost, even as the Lamanites, because of their faith in me at the time of their conversion, were baptized with fire and with the Holy Ghost, and they knew it not.“ (Moroni 9:20)
The following list describes some of the changes associated with the experiencing this mighty spiritual change from scriptural sources:
Become born again (John 3:3)
Mighty change in your heart (Alma 5:14)
Cleansed from all unrighteousness (Alma 7:14)
Changed from their carnal and fallen state, to a state of righteousness (Mosiah 27:25)
Being Redeemed of God (Mosiah 27:25)
Become the Sons and Daughters of God (Mosiah 27:25)
You are blessed to enjoy the words of eternal life in this world (Moses 6:59)Become sanctified from all sin (Moses 6:59)
You know God (1 John 4:7)
Overcome the world (1 John 5:4)
Receive the Lord’s image in your countenance (Alma 5:14)
Be filled with the Holy Ghost (Alma 36:24)
Have the wicked spirit rooted from your breast (Alma 22:15)
Receive great joy (Alma 22:15; Mosiah 4:3)
Garments are washed white, purified until they are cleansed from all sin (Alma 5:21)
Sufficiently humble (Alma 5:27)
Stripped of pride (Alma 5:28)
Stripped of envy (Alma 5:29)
Bring forth works meet for repentance (Alma 5:54)
Sing the song of redeeming love (Alma 5:9)
Illuminated by the light of the everlasting word (Alma 5:7)
Quickened in the inner man (Moses 6:65)
Receive a remission of sin (3 Nephi 12:1)
You have no more disposition to do evil, but to do good continually (Mosiah 5:2)Willing to be obedient to everything the Lord commands (Mosiah 5:5)
Become spiritually begotten (Mosiah 5:7)
Will not have a mind to injure one another (Mosiah 4:13)
Filled with the pure love of Christ (Moroni 7:48)
Filled with hope and perfect love (Moroni 8:26)
You cannot deny the power of God (Moroni 10:32)
You become holy, without spot (Moroni 10:33)
Within the Book of Mormon record, King Lamoni’s father, once he caught the vision of the promises of transformation in the spirit, was willing to give up all that he possessed, even all of his kingdom to receive this transformation. For such a powerful transformation, how then, is it possible that a group of Lamanites were baptized by fire and the Holy Ghost and knew it not? Just like me, without an experienced mentor who had gone before and was assisting them through the process in a way that they could understand their personal changes, because it was a change from the inside out, was not readily apparent or comprehensible.
In Helaman chapter 5, it describes their experience: “And behold, the Holy Spirit of God did come down from heaven, and did enter into their hearts, and they were filled as if with fire, and they could speak forth marvelous words.” (Helaman 5:45). This group of 300 Lamanites were commanded not to doubt what had happened to them. (Helaman 5:49) Again, the experience requires “faith unwavering,” as I had been instructed.
This was such a great occurrence it was also mentioned in Ether chapter 12. “Behold, it was the faith of Nephi and Lehi that wrought the change upon the Lamanites, that they were baptized with fire and with the Holy Ghost.” (Ether 12:14)
And so, I would encourage You, Reader, “Marvel not, that all mankind must be born again.” Though religions have mis-translated the very word of potential power, it IS possible, and expected, to have “no more disposition to do evil” and receive one’s translation experience… in this mortal life. THIS is how the “Kingdom of Heaven” returns to the earth. The “Second Coming” is a literal event, but it takes place upon a personal level, as each one of us prepares ourselves and is wholly desirous of the experience and willing to be “a new man in Christ,” living with a pure focus, and that being “for the eternal good of ALL.”
Again to 2 Clement: For when the Lord himself was asked by someone when his kingdom would come, he said, “When the two are one, and the outside like the inside, and the male with the female is neither male nor female. Now the “two are one” when we speak truth to one another and when one soul exists in two bodies with no posturing.
To translate something from one language into another is to make otherwise indiscernible symbols understandable and capable of application. When one goes through the translation experience it is one of the spirit. The physical IS NOT immediately changed. Thus, both the Nephites and I had no apparent transfiguration. Yet, the spirit is greatly advanced. One has no more desire to focus upon one’s own individual self or family but exists to do good and advance the cause of all humanity. The spirit operates the flesh, so that righteous actions are the result. This is the spirit and flesh no longer at war with each other, but “married,” working in tandem.
And “the outside like the inside” means this: the inside refers to the soul and the outside to the body. Just as your body is visible, so too your soul should be clearly seen in your good deeds. And the words the male with the female is neither male nor female mean this, that a brother who sees a sister should think nothing about her being female and she should think nothing about his being male. When you do these things, he says, “the kingdom of my Father will come.” (2 Clement 12: 4-6)
How far we have come from this as a society. Instead of the injunction to interact with and view each other from a state of benign purity, there is currently a rampant objectification of the physical body and the carnal lusts of the flesh. The only way to proceed to the promised “heaven on earth,” and the lack of lasciviousness that is experienced there is for each individual to begin to look at each other with eyes of pure acceptance, hardly even noticing the gender of another, and certainly not making that a topic of focus or conversation. Indeed, one’s focus changes so that each are perceived as one’s brother or sister. As pure little children, this perspective does not even allow for sensuality and lasciviousness. We realize that We Are Human Beings belonging to one eternal family. We see that we each have Divine and Spiritual Essences. These inherent, innocent qualities are those we seek for and focus upon when we look at another.
A similar message is given in the Gospel of Thomas 22: “Jesus saw some infants who were being suckled. He said to his disciples: These infants being suckled are like those who enter the kingdom. They said to him: If we then become children, shall we enter the kingdom? Jesus said to them: When you make the two one, and when you make the inside as the outside, and the outside as the inside, and the upper as the lower, and when you make the male and the female into a single one, so that the male is not male and the female not female, and when you make eyes in place of an eye, and a hand in place of a hand, and a foot in place of a foot, an image in place of an image, then shall you enter [the kingdom].”
Here, Jesus is saying, when you look at an eye, a hand, a foot (or any other part of the body), look with the same eyes you used in infancy. Look with pure acceptance and wonder. Look with the same innocent perception you used when you were a pure little child and unaware of gender. You looked and saw in a state of innocence, without hormones. Return to that place. See from a place of innocence and see a state of innocence. In this way, you can proceed into “heaven.”
Can you imagine for a moment each individual cell of a human body taking up awareness and utilizing that awareness to view its self as “set apart” distinct and separate from the others? As it does this and to the degree it does this (identifies as a separate unit) disharmony, “fission,” ensues and the body “FALLS” into dis-harmony, dis-ease, decay and death. This is literally what has transpired upon the earth. We are ALL “ADAMS” (atoms) within a singular body of a potential SUN. We are One organism, though currently far from living in an organized state. The earth is merely in its teenage years of development. We are ALL a part of the body of a Christ, a Sun/Son of God. Yet, when our focus is upon our individual divided selves we bring unrest, loneliness and lack of peace upon ourselves.
Only when the body absorbs all of its parts in unity and in equality will it know the Kingdom, or rather, its glorified, radiant, peace-filled state as a, literal, SUN. A seed of this divine light dwells within each one of us, it is the essential, pure part of us, our essence. This is the Kingdom of God that is within. The Kingdom of God that is around you includes everyone and everything and every “non-thing” else that contributes to life, awareness, and consciousness.
Again, “And by the male with the female, neither male nor female, he meaneth this; that a brother seeing a sister should have no thought of her as a female, and that a sister seeing a brother should not have any thought of him as a male. These things if ye do, saith He, the kingdom of my father shall come.”
So, What do *I* really think of *you* when *I* see *you?*
I see a precious, beautiful soul. I see an eternal and glorious woman who has lost her sense of “Self” and is attempting to regain her balance of worth from others who are, likewise, fallen into the temporal trap. I see an individual who is on a journey that she is only partially aware of… a marvelous trek through identity seeking which will only, can only, end once you have learned to look inside your self, deep deep inside your self.
She is there, waiting. All the value, beauty, goodness that you can hope for.
I hope you look withIN your self, with clear eyes, to obtain your inherent self worth.
I.C.U.C.Me. I.R.U. (“I see you see me, I am you.”)
(To be continued.)
In my pursuit of Real Truth, I have given up everything. Crawling through the “eye of the needle,” I have learned the *mysteries* and am now giving my life to assist YOU to dis-cover Who *YOU* really are, along with your unique gift to offer humanity. As you learn to seek (in the right place and with purified intent), you WILL find treasures of lasting value, along with every promised reward. Together, we will establish a society of humane beings and live life ALIVE, on PURPOSE, and with a sociality unequaled… because we will each BE and view each other as equally and profoundly DIVINE! Please… catch this Hope and Vision and join with me.